#t: panic attack

[unleashingmyinnerthoughts]

Currently having a mental breakdown because my dad invited me to come visit him (he travels the world full time). The last couple of months ive been working hard on allowing myself to be upset with things he’s done in the past and the abandonment issues.. ive always had a hard time critisizing him bc i love him and i think he’s overall a good person but obviously he’s made mistakes… but this.. this made me feel shitty bc he just wants to see me and will pay for everything and give me a good vacation and i feel like ive been a shitty ungrateful child.. i hate feeling guilty - its like 80% of ny personality at this point

[unleashingmyinnerthoughts]

had a panic attack in class today... Only good thing about zoom classes is that at least I was in my own appartement and could just walk the two steps to my bed instead of having to do the 90 minute commute back home while my mental health was in shambles.. phew it sucked...