#t:am

[for-stay]

[9:11am] 💌 minho: i know you have that exam later and you were stressing a lot over it, but remeber two things

[9:11am] 💌 minho: first is that i love you and even if you fail it doesn’t make you stupid, you can always try again!

[9:12am] 💌 minho: and second, you’re a bad bitch and you got this!!!!!

[for-stay]

[7:27am] 💌 chan: a daily reminder that you’re doing your very best and it’s enough. you’re enough, my love

[for-stay]

[6:58am] chan hides his face in his hands because he can’t stop smiling after seeing you in his shirt; your hair is messy and you just woke up, you’re still tiredly rubbing at your eyes. he doesn’t know what to do with the fact that he’s the only person that gets to see you like this and that he wouldn’t mind seeing this for the rest of his life.

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[11:23am] you’re in the middle of talking about something you love and jisung is staring at you, curiously listening to everything you have to say. suddenly he moves his face closer to yours, making you tumble over your words a little.

“would it be okay if i kissed you right now?” he asks with a cute smile, his nose almost touching yours. “you’re just so cute when you get passionate.”

“you’re an idiot,” you giggle, holding your hands to his cheeks.

“yeah, but your idiot,” he counters and quickly moves forward to peck your lips before you can say anything else.

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[8:13am] you’re worried about meeting your internet friend for the first time, you’ve talked for almost two years before a chance to visit finally occurred and you know it’s ridiculous to be nervous because you literally know everything about each other and you’ve spent countless nights on video calls, but you can’t turn the anxious feelings off. you’re waiting at the airport though and you can’t go back now, so you’re trying to see your best friend in the crowd of people who got off the plane already. suddenly someone screams your name and when you turn to your left, you see jisung running your way at full speed, his baggage long forgotten behind him. your lips almost automatically form a smile and you don’t even have time to say anything before he picks you up in his arms and starts to spin around, making you both laugh loudly and people move out of your way to make place.

“god, you’re so much cuter in real life! and i finally get to hold you! and you’re really here! oh my god! sixteen hours on the plane was so worth it! i’m never leaving again!” he keeps yelling and everything about him is so loud, but inside you everything instantly gets calm instead. as if everything finally fit into place now that he’s here.

and so you hold him close as you laugh, feeling safer than ever before.

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[7:12am] you slowly blink your eyes open and stretch your arms out after waking up, only to accidentally hit chan who’s lying next to you.

“oh god, i’m sorry,” you mutter even as you can barely suppress your laugh. but then your eyes fall on the bedside clock behind chan and you frown. “we’ll both be late, why didn’t you wake me up?”

chan rubs at his aching forehead and then softly flicks your nose. “because you looked adorable while sleeping. tomorrow i will wake you up with a blow to the head,” he answers, pretending to be annoyed.

“and who said i’ll let you sleep here tonight? also did you watch me sleeping? creep~” your words end in a fit of laughter when he pulls you into his arms and turns around so you’re on top of him.

“just five more minutes,” he hugs you tightly and you watch him dozing off and trying to fight the sleepiness until you really have to get up. but it’s fine, your lazy mornings usually look like that.

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[2:42am] you wake up to the sound of your phone ringing and you reach for it with closed eyes, answering without looking at the screen because the ringtone is too loud for you now. you don’t even get to ask who’s this before words flood from the other end.

“there was so many of them. the whole arena was filled with them. they were there for us, weren’t they?”

you sit up hearing chan’s shaky voice and your heart squeezes in your chest when you realize he’s crying. “of course they were there for you, channie. stays did it all for you,” you assure him quietly, letting him breathe into the phone as he tries to calm down.

“this doesn’t feel real, i feel like i’m going to wake up alone in the dorms again–“ his voice cracks and it’s breaking you.

“stop that right now. you’ve waited seven years for this and you deserve all of it, you hear me? you all do, so cut it out. i’m so sorry that i couldn’t be there but i’m still so proud of you. you said so yourself, this is just the beginning, captain. you’re going to do fine,” you say, smiling when he chuckles at the nickname.

this time when he answers, he sounds a little more calm and sure of himself. “thank you and sorry for waking you up, i just really needed to talk to you.”

you stay on the line with him for another hour, smiling as he tells you all about the first show. you know you’re going to be tired later but it doesn’t matter. what does matter is that his voice holds all the happiness in the world.

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[11:25am] you’re sitting in the café with some of your friends and chan is getting another cup of coffee for you when one of them nudges your arm.

"he’s really good for you," your friend says with a smile and your eyes immediately wander to your boyfriend. at the same time chan looks back and smiles widely, waving his hand at you from the queue. "it’s like you two have your own wavelength and he can’t take his eyes off of you. you love him a lot, don’t you?"

you haven’t told him yet because you were scared to hear that he doesn’t feel the same which was ridiculous since his every action showed how much you mean to him. you wave back to chan and then look at your friend, a decision to tell chan already forming in your heart.

"i really do."