this is for all those people I am beginning to forge friendships with
Or have expressed interest in forging friendships but haven't done so yet.and then
this post especially is for Nola, Rhanna, Elena, Tabitha, aaaaand Rachel.
(Wow. I do not have a lot of guy friends. Huh.)
I am sorry if I haven't talked to you in a while.
I'm sorry if I've made plans (for instance, planning a skypecall) and then didn't follow through.
I'm sorry if I drop off the face of the earth sometimes.
Anxiety gets to me sometimes. I feel awkward. I feel scared, because of certain things from my past.
I'm working on it and I promise that if I've seemed to ignore you, it's probably not anything you did. In all likelihood it's because I had anxiety about talking to new people so I procrastinated, and then I felt anxious about apologizing for procrastinating so I didn't mention it and just kinda... hovered in a holding pattern. I'm not being flaky, I just get anxious that I'm making bad decisions or that people don't want me around.
But yeah. This is to let everyone know that I don't mean to ignore you or anything and if you message me I will almost certainly respond with enthusiasm! (If people message me I don't feel quite so... obtrusive)