#table hitting noises

[codemartyr]

tbt one of the first things louis tells the queenslayer is that they can trust him bc he won’t stab them in the back and then in the heirs ending he literally stabs them through the heart from behind while in tears bc he has to break his promise to keep them from suffering for eternity alone 🤡🤡🤡

[turnsorrow]

i think alisaie’s relationship with father figures fucks me up specifically like ....... any time she develops that kind of bond it hurts her at such a deep level bc she never had that with fourchenault he just outright violently refused to ever even TRY to understand her or support her bc she was so specifically similar to louisoix and AGGRESSIVELY opposed him head on as opposed to alphinaud who is at least a little more eloquent and subtle about things

her relationship w ameliance is only strained bc of alisaie’s misperception that all her fighting with her father inherently damages her bond with her mother as well so it’s not as traumatically damaged as with fourche but like

ali getting any kind of parental love from anyone is such a huge deal bc she has literally grown up going through hardship after hardship bc she left her comfortable life to find out why her grandfather died to protect a world her father forsake and in the entirety of endwalker (almost) she’s getting all those hardships thrown in her face, belittled and spat on by a “father” who not only disowned her but is basically saying that everything she’s gone through wasn’t worth anything so suddenly having sb stand up for / support her / believe in her and validate that her suffering wasn’t for naught / that everything she’s accomplished was not only enough but is outright smth to be proud of (& they are proud of her) is like!!!! a huge deal!!!!

tbc this also kinda extends to when / if her relationship with fourchenault is ever repaired later on in interactions with him, not JUST found family members but like

alisaie craves parental validation and understanding So Fucking Bad dude she’s been fighting to keep her grandfather’s legacy alive in their family and make louisoix proud since she was like 10 years old when he died like cmon she is trying SO hard she’s a CHILD