#taif00d

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

Just a few things I want. I swear I've been a good girl this year.

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

Hey guys

I've been the hospital and found out that I have a viral infection and anemia that lead to a heart murmur. That is actually starting to hurt because my body isn't producing enough red blood cells. So my heart has to pump harder and faster but it's a straining at the same time. Plus I'm looking at a 6 grand hospital bill. I work two part time Jobs that barely give me hours so how the hell am I suppose to pay that? Plus I'm on bed rest and you can't make money on bed rest. The only good news is that my mom and aunt are coming out here to vegas to take care of me. Oh and maybe bring my nephew. He brings such joy in my life.

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

So I decide to do a pole video this will only be up for like 24 hours. So you know make fun cause god know I am. 

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

Okay so I'm having an anxiety attack

I'm usually very confident and can talk to people at anytime. Today my older sister said she wants to talk. Now for most of your probably like why is freaking out over her sister wanting to talk to her? Well I have communication problems with my sister to say the least. She tends to make me feel completely and utterly stupid, she makes me believe that all my choices are wrong and that she knows what's best for me and she belittles me in every way possible, So when she says we need to talk I instantly try to find ways to avoid her. Like today I fell off our balcony just because I knew she was downstairs and I wanted to go out a get a burrito. That's how much I hate talking to her. I sort landed on my back kind of hard but I managed to get back up on the balcony and into my room undetected. The only bad part is I didn't get my burrito. So yeah that's the story of how desperate I am to avoid this talk. 

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

SO basically this guy wrote me a song for my birthday and let me just say no please don't.

[cryinq-blog]

Can you promo me please? c:

sure!

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

My friend Jesse comes over and I just got the shower.

Jesse: Why aren't you wearing any bottoms or a bra for that matter?

Me: I like wearing just my sweatshirt and panties.

Jesse: and the the red pumps?

Me: Just felt like being a little sexy

Jesse: Yea sure your about to get in aren't you.

Me: no but here you go (i hand her the book she came for)

Jesse: no here you go (she hands me a condom)

[nerdybisexualtendacies]

I'm going to ramble for a minute so please ignore me.

Okay so I had a nightmare last night and if was more of a flashback of the first time I was raped. For the life of I couldn't wake up. When I finally did wake up my heart was  racing my hands were swollen and sweating. My head was throbbing then I realized it was close to the date so two years from this Friday, it all happened. I hate remembering that day I hate it. So I've been crying on and off since I woke up. Now get this 5 minutes my aunt tells me my favorite brother who is also went to JAIL! Now My aunt was going to tell me because my mom told her not. So no one was going to tell me that my brother and best friend was in JAIL! WTF So now I'm just angry on top of everything else I've got on my mind.