#takayababy

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takayababy replied to your post: I know I have a few followers who like...

GIMME TAKAYA BEING AMUSED OR MAYBE GUILTY BC JIN HAS ONE-SIDED FEELS THAT AREN’T SUBTLE AT ALL EVEN THOUGH JIN TOTALLY THINKS THEY ARE

They don't have many secrets between the three of them, and while part of that can certainly be attributed to trust, it's equally true that neither Chidori nor Jin is particularly adept at lying.

Or, more precisely, at lying to Takaya.

Chidori keeps her lips locked tight and very rarely hands over the key, but Takaya has had the master copy in his possession since the day they met. Jin, meanwhile, can convince anyone of anything, so long as he remains cloaked in the Internet's anonymity – a stipulation that does him little good when interacting face-to-face.

Takaya has long ago committed Jin to memory, filed away each nervous tic and gesture and every subtle shift in tone, but not as one might memorize a lover, or kin; he's memorized Jin as one might memorize a weapon one intends to utilize to its fullest potential, and there's only the finest of lines between that analogy and the truth.

And so he knows that when Jin goes still and silent beneath his touch, as he so often does, it isn't because he wishes Takaya would stop. It's so terribly endearing, the way he stammers when a hand on his shoulder catches him off guard, how he adjusts his glasses to hide the heat in his cheeks when Takaya showers him in praise.

On very rare occasion Takaya considers keeping his distance, wonders if teasing Jin with glimpses of what he truly wishes for is more cruel than kind. He knows Jin as intimately as any person can know another, as well as if he'd pulled him apart and painstakingly reassembled the pieces (and that, too, isn't so far from the truth), but he cannot even begin to understand desire in the way he knows, intellectually, that Jin feels it. Touch comes naturally, praise he can give; he would even offer Jin sex if he didn't think the words might ring hollow and hurt worse than the wanting, but what Jin wants most Takaya cannot give.

Sometimes he considers keeping his distance.

And sometimes Jin comes to him, pale and sick and so very tired, and his arms open of their own accord to hold him close. It must sting, to know desire for something that is permanently out of reach, but the three of them know worse pain, and to refuse to soothe it, as best he can, would be cruel.

He does not – cannot – love Jin. But he can offer comfort, and when Jin blushes, fidgets, whispers confessions in the dark when he thinks Takaya's too fat asleep to hear, he can take his own sort of comfort in knowing that there is some good left in what's left of the world.

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takayababy replied to your post “in case you were wondering just how good my first “visiting fenris at...”

welcome to dragon age: where even the most grumbly/stoic men turn alarmingly charming when u romance them

I'm having trouble with him now because he keeps doing this thing where he hates mages and disapproves of outright murder

but it IS hilarious to have him and Anders in the party at the same time cuz they just bicker the whole time it's great

[kiiiloren]

i rly........ rly wanna see ot3 in stupid sweaters ok........

request for takayababy!! <3

[nutkins]

i am home friends,,, and thank u xat for answering my ask dear!!! u w u

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solong-gaybowser replied to your post

Probably Miles crying because Taylor ate the last of his ice cream and Eddie doesn't want to share his.

of course how could i forget

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takayababy replied to your post “im doing this rp with somebody about an author that moves into an...”

and a ghostRIDER eh?? wink wink nudge nudge im trash

f uCK

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takayababy replied to your post:Headcanon: That little star tattoo Takaya has...

YO THAT HAS LITERALLY BEEN MY HEADCANON FOR THAT TATTOO FOR LITERALLY EVER (except i think that he AND chidori did it) HIGH FIVES U

HEADCANON BRAIN TWIN HIGH FIVE

Yeah, Chidori totally helped. I think it was probably Jin's idea because Chidori's a lot less likely to be... grotesquely sappy, but she helped. And she had to draw the design because I don't think either of the boys could draw a straight line to save their lives.

Yay, bonding through unsanitary DIY body modification!

[bontenmaru]

LITERALLY ANYTHING AND EVERYONE. But uh holy shit seriously if you cosplay Dragon Age I will probably actually transform into a dinosaur and sprint screeching across the country to hug you

Affvjkvk dude you flatter me so much?!

Buuut you know I’ve been watching Erika play through Origins and thanks to that we already have some tentative plans for cosplays next year…

(…I’d be Alistair….)