that’s definitely one of my big struggles is those instrusive thoughts and the reality of grief, is feeling they don’t deserve to feel upset because they “still have it all”, and shouldn’t be complaining. its the true raw reality of it. i’ll feel angry that people i feel “have it all” will complain to me about things i see that are so solvable.. and easy to fix, and how it doesn’t make sense to me why they make such big mole hills about things that feel so small to me. i feel that anger swelling inside me when i’ll be told about something in their life that is upsetting them, and i just want to shake them and scream at them at how they could be telling me their problems i feel are “fixable” and how it doesn’t feel right that they would be telling me this when i don’t have “it all” anymore. there is alot of anger behind grief, not just the death of him that makes me angry, but the everyday relationships i have with people.
