something has to change
in theory i have nothing against reading a good book or two.
however in practice i have many things against it, such as a) distracts me from homework b) distracts me from food c) distracts me from socializing d) EATS MY LIFE
the reading is not the problem, it's the not wanting to work and face the Shame of Overdue Assignments and Not Being Who I Mean To Be and also to an extent when i'm reading an emotional book it's like...ah yes. emotions. i have those also probably
not sleeping doesn't help
lists do help
talking to people helps. i know you feel very lonely (despite? because of? avoiding people) but it HELPS
eating food helps (fears of The Parasite and my Vaguely Upset Stomach: make this one harder than i'd like fr fr)
going "oh this is hard" helps
today i had Plans and then they were Cancelled because of Fuck You.
i wanted to do laundry, i didn't, i wanted to put up handwashing, that would take five minutes get back 12:12. ...or 12:09. 2.5 minutes. sure.
AAAAAAAAH.
does getting mad that you didn't when you just did actually serve any purpose or just feel like it should.
try: yay! we did a thing!
glad i did a thing aside from "eat cake and one (1) meal and read 1.5 books i guess." i also saw my roommate today instead of hiding in my room Forever, go me, better than previous doomspiral readingmaxx days
ws 1
BRAIN DUMP
EVERYTHING OVERDUE FOREVER:
ws 2
ws 3
ws 4
ws 5
ws 6
ws 7?
ws 8?
ex 1
ex 2
ex 3
ex 4
ex 5
ex 6
ex 7?
ex 8?
rc ws 1
rc ws 2
q 2 (should be simple, do these first)
q 3
BIBLIOGRAPHY
practice typing in Persian
new annotations
academic nos:
can we make it easier somehow. what would How look like
Vocab List
email paper to M + C
TYPE UP POEMS (recent batch)
type up poems (fuckoff ancient batch)
sort poetry
reply to friend
social:
reach out to J omg
reply to friend K without being a bitch?
reply to friend C omg
reply to H re: BaA
nice for life:
dust
handwash other clothes (ideally tomorrow)
vacuum
shower
sort chaos on desk (usually makes u happier also?)
paint nails
[other bingo items]
shopping related:
buy nicer olive oil :(
get toilet paper + victuals + nice tea ideally + make something welcoming
time bound:
game w/friend tomorrow
meds for week tomorrow
set up "bedroom" for self Su?
laundry TOMORROW OR YOU ARE OUT OF PANTS
take out box of trash before Su
change sheets Su night? Mo morning?
clean fridge out
class M (?)
sell car T
fridge related:
eat min 2 meals tomorrow including cooking peach + okra
clean out stuff you are Not using
has the rhubarb gone bad
FEED STARTER
clear out Evil Batter?