#taojun talks

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economy so cooked even mark lee is unemployed

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i just finished when i fly towards you... why was i more invested in gu ran and jiang jia's love story than su zaizai and zhang lurang

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CHEONGSAN IS ALIVE YOU CANNOT CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE

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hi everyone, it's taojun

recently my m*ther went through my pc w/o my permission! and found out about my tumblr account. she made me deactivate BOTH neonvision & liuzone accounts, so well here i am w a new account :(

tagging my nets: @ficscafe, @kflixnet, @ankathi-a, @wayvwriters, @nct-writers

tagging all the moots i can remember! @sugazwrld, @mieohmy, @hwangsify, @chenjwi, @smoll-tangerine, @lebrookestore, @lovesickgyu, @svchengss-main, @jenojaemssss-main, @danishmiilk, @njmverse, @chicksung, @floraljae, @hyuckworld. @artaefact, @jenotapes, @ot7-wayv-cb, @koishua, @intotheneozone, @kdyism.

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another post of js thoughts (this is lowk js for myself but ur free to read :p)

nct has been a huge part of my life the past 10 years. especially the 2017-2022 era. they are genuinely my comfort group, every single unit. (besides t**** bc obviously. and the wishies bc i wasn't as active in the nctzen world for their debut). they all mean so much to me. i remember waking up during the pandemic just to go watch nct videos on youtube, read fics on here and wattpad. every member of nct has had such a big impact on my life and sm can fucking smd for everything they've done nct wrong for (which could be like a book as thick as a dicktionary but anyway.).

mark lee leaving makes a lot of sense. he was the youngest of the original 5, and like most of the dreamies, he joined sm as a kid. he never got to experience the normal life a kid, like all of nct dream. however he's different from the rest of nct dream bc he is korean-canadian, he has a family outside of korea and he was overworked as fuck, literally being put into every group possible.

yesterday i spent the whole day in shock. it's just hit me so hard bc i am so parasocial w nct like a lot of kpop fans are w their favs. i think i can finally put how i feel into words.

being an nctzen was like the one real hobby i had in high school. pandemic hit me for a whole one and a half years. the pandemic, for me, lasted from when i was 15-16 and i was going through a lot mentally at the time. i was really depressed and going thru a lot of shit bc my parents were really controlling. and like i gen had no friends except discord/tumblr mutuals. to be fully honest, i basically spent all of my time on spotify, youtube, tumblr, etc. (i was js chronically online asfff), watching compilations and listening to their music and reading fanfics. my parents would block my shit off (over the internet. blocking my access to YOUTUBE SPOTIFY WATTPAD TUMBLR DISCORD LITERALLY EVERYTHING) and take my laptop/phone every few days bc they "wanted me to focus on academics". but i was always raised this way. so it just made me find ways to bypass their blocks. and bypass these blocks i did. i found ways to get around their ways to do shit i wanted to (which resulted in me sleeping at 2am on a daily basis). i have so many memories, good and bad, from when i was a diehard nctzen. there are a lot of things i'd change about the past, but i'd never change anything about being an nctzen.

also sm you owe me financial compensation like wtf ur literally so evil. i've seen this movie before. ts happened in 2018 with winwin leaving nct 127 and mark graduating from nct dream. sm should pay for my therapy. anyway i just really wish i had at least gone to an nct concert before this all happened. nct is basically over for me. it was basically over for me when winwin left for a career in china but it's definitely over now.

thank you nct. i will always listen to nct's music, i will always love nct. but kpop is a chapter in my life that has officially ended.

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bruh iwas looking to go back down my nct ff rabbit hole and i was looking for this one very specific wattpad book about jaehyun i think it was called try again but i CAN'T FIND IT ANYMORE... 💔 does anyone know it it's ab a girl who leaves letters for her friend/crush and she's suicidal and ends up actually committing and he finds out everything after someone sends the letters to him

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mark lee leaving nct is genuinely gut wrenching. i feel sick. no wonder all of dream was crying when tds4 was ending i literally can't believe it.... no one text me today im going on an nct marathon 😭😭😭 genuinely the worst part about all this is that i've been an nctzen for 10 years but never got the chance to see them live, not even once. had i known i wouldve saved up for tds4....

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i'm curious how many people will even see this LMAO but..

which wip should i continue

"PATHETIQUE". enemies to lovers, pianist, drama, coming of age, char growth

"The Friendzone". frenemies to lovers, high school / senior year, fake dating

"Reputation". after his ex spreads rumors ab him no one except her cares ab him

"When This Finds You". 8 letters, if he realizes he can stop her from s***de

Voting ended onApr 18, 2025