i'm gon'a get the creepy things lou has been toting around my head lately to see if they're anything viable or if it is secretly elizabeth trying to influence her or talk her way into getting some attention SO! and, after u read, if u do, i'd love to hear your inputs and ideas, too!
when it comes to romantics and romanticism and even intimacy, i'm noticing a pattern of lou going "i want to live in them, i want to be part of them" or vice versa. almost a very literal type where when she knows she's in love, she down horrendous, she starts leaning towards more grotesque shows of affection and the nature. she'd never desecrate a client's body, but embalmed entrails and anything marked to discard she'd probably arrange into "i love you" or a heart or of some "romantic" nature, take a picture, and send to her lover. she'd think about how romantic it would be to give them anesthetic, cut them open a little, she knows enough to perform surgery, take a picture of her holding their heart, vice versa. how romantic! on the lesser side but still creepy, asking for a small snip of hair to put in a special locket she'll wear. asking if they'd like to give her a small sample of blood (she knows enough phlebotomy, she could extract it safely and treat them well afterwards to replenish what was lost) to either make a necklace or a ring of or something of the sort to keep with her as a token. and she'd gladly do the same! in fact, they may be some of the first true romantic love gifts she'd give to someone once in a very committed relationship. her blood, a small braiding of her hair in a locket or pocketwatch. pictures of her in a coffin or covered in blood, chest open with her heart exposed for them.
there's also been the creeping, sneaking suggestion of obsessive behavior when she's in love. maybe keeping too close of tabs. sharing location. only wanting them for herself. or to a degree, wanting that for herself. wanting obsession. her family aren't with her, they have their own priorities and lives. and she's isolated. she'd want for naught but their love and affection and attention. she'd sit pretty for them wherever they want her to wait at.
all a bit unhealthy thoughts and ways to view love as for her i think. elizabeth, for any that know her, is similar in this, but she *is* a serial killer, and currently (tho i do need to reply it's been forever i'm sorry lovely lol) @scftheartiisms and i do have a dynamic going where ellie pretty much is just holding valerie from the world because she now sees her as Her's and wants to keep her for herself. ellie is an obsessive individual, selfish and *creepy*. she Would kill other people for getting near who / what she designates her Her's, and has before.
i don't think lou would ever / could kill somebody? i think if ever it happens, and has happened, is it's out of self defense. life or death. and even then, it's hard to grapple with having taken a life for her. she loves life. loves people. loves the living. she'd hate to be a *cause* of death. she just wants to *care* for the dead, and their living, too. sometimes i think that bleeds together and this is what creates that bit of creepiness. the immediate romanticism of planning a funeral together for her and her partner. of taking morbid, macabre pictures to send or keep as romantic gestures. commissioning her siblings in down seasons for taxidermy projects of bones, skeletons, hearts, or things that resemble a human out of their materials as gifts or shows of affection. blood kink is creeping in there somewhere, i'm sure.
i don't know. i've got a lot of this swimming around up there and lou is like "oooh!" while i'm trying to cover her eyes (and ellie is like "nono, let her see" lol).