i was on a little breaky and omg it took me forever to come back here. i don’t even know how to explain it properly, but everything felt so exhausting lately. every notification, every thought, every little thing felt like it needed energy i just didn’t have. i think i rushed myself too much after finishing everything and somewhere along the way i forgot how to just exist without constantly doing something.
there were days where i genuinely wanted to disappear onto some empty island where nobody could reach me, where i could just sit with my comfort food, sleep for a hundred years, stare at the ocean and not think about anything at all 😭 like no responsibilities, no deadlines, no pressure, just me being a little potato in peace. and the weirdest thing is that i wasn’t even sad exactly? just… drained. like someone unplugged me and forgot to charge me back up. i kept trying to force myself to be excited and creative and social, but my brain was just sitting there going “absolutely not”
but enough about my dramatic island escape plans 😭
how have you been, love??? because excuse me????? i come back and find out you’ve written 40k????????? HELLO????? are you okay???? are your fingers okay???? is your brain okay???? should i be sending flowers to your keyboard for surviving that???seriously though, i’m so ridiculously proud of you. and seeing people give you all that attention made me so happy because it’s literally what you deserve. every single bit of it. i was sitting there smiling like a proud girlfriend watching you shine 😭❤️
and don’t even try to act casual about it because 40k is INSANE. i need you to understand that from my perspective that’s wizard behavior. that’s sorcery. that’s you sitting down and deciding to feed an entire nation. i missed you a lot, by the way. more than i realized. things felt a little emptier without seeing you around, and now that i’m back i fully intend to be annoying again. so prepare yourself.
come here and tell me everything i’ve missed🥺
MY BABY TARA 🥹 part of my heart feels complete now that you’re back home to me, i missed you sm and i’ve been thinking about you too, i constantly worry when my girl isn’t around!!
pls don’t feel guilty at all for taking a little break, you deserve it after working so hard, you’re so dedicated and passionate about your writing and you deserve every bit of love you receive and even more, a thousands more followers and an inbox filled with love constantly 🤍 it genuinely makes me so happy when i see people adoring you and i feel like such a proud mama! it’s completely understandable that you needed a break, it’s okay to feel exhausted or overwhelmed and just wanna disappear for a while, i feel the same sometimes when life gets too draining, my classes, exams and even writing a big chapter can get tiring too, i’m actively trying to write every day cos i don’t wanna fall into a writer’s block but i also want you to know that you’re already doing so well, i see it, your readers see it and none of us want you to push yourself too hard or put too much pressure on yourself, take all the time you need before coming back to writing, don’t force it.. it will come naturally to you especially because you’re such a talented writer, you’re already so consistent honestly even i’m not as frequent as you with posting fics, teach me your ways girl 😭
and yes i’ve been okay! i was a little sick last week but i’m doing better now, i’m back to focusing on my girls and writing, i’ve been working on chapter 14 for so long that the wc got ridiculously big, i always end up writing way more than i plan to LMAO i actually had to split it into two parts because it exceeded 70k+ words
i love you soo much, i’m really lucky to have you in my life, your asks make my whole day, i would print them out and keep them as love letters if i could 🤭 i hope you’re doing amazing today and i hope reading my words always makes you smile a little, i could go on and on, my blog honestly feels empty without your sweet presence too, thank you for always blessing me and my space with your angelic presence *mwa mwaahhh*