Yes, I made a post about that lately, but... I don't know if anyone remembers, but in Mizumono, Will asks Freddie to do something for him and not write about Abigail, to let her rest in peace.
I bet she wrote about her anyway because of “the Kitchen Nightmare” at Dr. Lecter's house. And considering all this, I seriously think Will was lucky that during the Red Dragon case, Freddie (most likely) didn't mention Abigail at all in her articles. Imagine what questions Wally might have asked him if he had read not only that Will had killed a man and was sent to a mental institution because of that, but also why he and Hannibal the Cannibal were the surrogate fathers of the daughter of the man Will killed.
*Cackles* Thank you oh god that mental image. Perfection.
hey remember in fucing 2015 when i talked to a fucking cult leader or whatever the fuck this person was because im in my inbox and im dying, hey remember???? yall remember??????? im only publishing this so i can give myself some kind of closure that this happened what the fuck
This is just going to be all the information I learned form Sam after the fact when we started talking again. Other than her confirming everything I said as it being as how she remembered it (which made me feel so relieved since almost everyone else was calling me a liar) she had some extra stuff to tell me that she never told me at the time. I'm assuming it's because she was told not to tell me or she thought it would piss me off and in either case well it isn't wrong. All of this stuff would have severely pissed me off to know about if I had in the moment. We have had some, disagreements over one situation, and I already explained that there is miscommunication about what happened at the MonsterMania convention but everything else still seems to be in line with all I've said. This is the stuff I didn't know. I can't confirm it to be true or false at least not absolutely, however she has no reason to lie especially not now and from the other information I have already (a lot of which she doesn't even know about) I can safely say that if this is coming from more than one source she's not lying. Or at least she was presented with the same evidence and proof that I was and several other people.
One of the most damning things she told me was about how TC kept promising to get her things for her art. One of the things was she promised to get Sam tickets to SDCC 14. The thing is that TC had no actual way to get those tickets. As I've been explaining all along TC liked to act like she had connections she never actually had. The only "connection" she had was this Tool Bag Rick guy I keep mentioning and even then I'm not sure he could really do much other than talk to Martha (one of the producers) and retweet some of her bullshit. Sam was denied tickets to SDCC 14 then later promised a press pass to MonsterMania which she also didn't get. TC promised to make it up to her, and by the way I remember all of this because I was around to hear her promise these things. Anyway so Sam tells me that since TC didn't actually have tickets to SDCC 14 she paid someone in California to make fake tickets but only for Lauren. Then she informed Rick that Lauren was going to be there. Lauren hooked up with Rick, Rick either did or didn't know the tickets were fake (not sure what the situation neither does Sam know) and that's how Lauren got in. Lauren was well aware the tickets were fake. I believe Roxy went to that one as well not sure. At that convention Lauren was ordered to wait in line for 6 hours to attempt to get a limited edition Funko doll of "bloody Hannibal". Except it wasn't just one that TC wanted. TC wanted to attempt to buy ALL of them. She figured that if she had all of them she could use them to promote her site and one of her crappy giveaway contests since they were limited and highly desired. When she didn't get even one of them that's when she decided her staff had "failed" and that's when she told Sam this and guilted her into doing shit at MonsterMania that at times she seemed greatly uncomfortable doing.
By the time of SDCC 15, Rick, Fuller, and Martha knew Lauren so well, TC was able to get Lauren a press pass so she didn't have to have tickets to get into SDCC 15. These were also promised to Sam if Sam did more art for TC. Then no, Sam was dropped. There was also a contest for a signed script which Sam was kicked out of in favor of a friend that TC promised could win. TC was always promising Sam and the rest of her staff signed scripts but she was never able to get them beyond promising that she would do a contest to NBC. This left her to rig the contests to make sure her friends won. She willingly ignored entries to the competitions and the odds were always in the favor of her friends. Every single winner of her "Cannibal Couture" contest were people she was already friends with. Even if she claims all contest winners were chosen at random or completely unbiased she was lying. Once I proved that through screenshots and tweet records she started to get more and more silent on her account. I even personally called out one of the people who won every damn single time she ran a contest. Back when we were friends I even questioned TC on how this person kept winning. TC claimed she totally couldn't believe it either she guessed they were just lucky. It was more than that, much more.
Sam also detailed to me she was friends with Lauren when Lauren moved out to the Chicago area to live around TC. When she quit her job to do this. Sam reports that even at that point Lauren seemed aware that TC couldn't get her a job with NBC but was going anyway. Lauren started to bum around begging people for money including my other friend Hank. At a certain point to both Sam and Hank it became clear that this money either wasn't getting to Lauren or she was just using it to get TC stuff so they both cut her off completely. It even seems that Hank gave her far more than Sam ever did and some of it as a loan which Lauren made pretty clear she wasn't going to pay back. Hank was pissed about this as he rightfully should be. Sam told me she gave Lauren money hoping it would prevent her from moving in with TC but it appeared that she moved in with the woman anyway. Sam also mentioned being in staff meetings where no one talked about me (which I believe) but TC on occasion seemed to talk to her one on one about me and try to warn her about me which I already knew.
It was around the time I started to post some of this information that out of the blue Lauren texted Sam and started to try to interrogate her on how I knew all of this stuff. Which indicates to me that it's also not a lie. Sam wouldn't give a straight answer and as far as TC and Lauren know she's not talking to me. I would prefer they don't know I'm talking to Sam or Hank or anyone else I'm talking to. This gives them fuel to call me a liar because "ha ha she won't even name her sources" but I assure you there are plenty of sources and all of them are valid and have provided proof in one way or the other to TC's behavior. She told me that they don't really know anything and they are desperate. She also told me that on several occasions TC tried to get Sam to call the cops on me. When Sam asked her why, TC said that I was harassing her (her as in Sam) and Sam should report it to the police. Sam said that I wasn't harassing any of them and if TC was so concerned with my harassment of her (as in TC not Sam) then she could call the cops herself. As it turns out there are several people that TC tried to get to call the cops on me on their behalf not hers. The only conclusion I can draw from this is that TC doesn't want me to know her real name and information because she knows if I have it I can turn everything right back around on her. Personally I would love to get some kind of call or letter from the cops as it would have to give me TC's real name and location. At which point I could call the cops on her or at very least name her in a civil suit. Both of which I would do in a heart beat. TC knows what she's doing is wrong and that's why she doesn't want her real name exposed to me. This is why I truly believe she is Jen Cornet format he Final Fantasy 7 fandom I mentioned before. Or at least one of several reasons.
It was around December that I had a fallout with Sam. Though I tried to reconcile with her it just wasn't working. Once again I wouldn't say this was all her fault or all mine it was about 50/50. I believed at the time that a lot of the stuff she was saying was stuff that was brainwashed into her by TC. The reason I think this is because later on when I met Hank it turns out that Lauren was saying and doing the same things around the same time that Sam was doing this to me. Now, even though Sam and I have been talking as of late I haven't exactly prodded into this side of things. Maybe she was acting of her own accord maybe she was influenced by TC. I will admit I am not the easiest person to get along with and maybe she was just stressed out by the entire situation and I wasn't helping. It doesn't exactly matter now. What I do know is that we came to a breaking point and I remember exactly what that was.
One night she and I were talking and I brought up the fact that people thought Freddie Lounds was worse than Hannibal. As in actually, legitimately worse. Now I won't argue with opinions too much even if that is the dumbest opinion people have in this fandom (or one of them) but I will say that it's very hard to factually argue that Freddie Lounds is worse. As already explained she wasn't a criminal or a murderer. Her worst fault was that she knew how to skirt around the law to barely get in trouble for anything, bend the rules, manipulate, and also exaggerate a lot of the truth. She wasn't the greatest character morally but neither were any of the other characters on the show. Except probably Beverly? Maybe? I can't think of anything she really did that was breaking the rules or morally wrong other than breaking into Hannibal's house without a warrant in season two, but that was to help Will because he told her to. It's debatable. In any case compared to what Hannibal was doing in the show…how could anyone even try to make the argument that Freddie was worse than him?
So after bringing this up with her she said something like "no one is worse than my baby" because in the role-plays we did she was playing Hannibal. I was like hahahaha okay yeah I know but legitimately you don't think that right? I mean people who say that are just stupid or way too into Hannibal and Will. Yet she maintained her position on the fact that people were not ultimately wrong for saying that Freddie was worse than Hannibal which I'm like no there are facts and there are opinions. The facts of this are that in the eyes of the law and even in the eyes of what is moral and immoral Freddie is only slightly bad compared to Hannibal. For some reason this turned into a really huge fight as if she also believed Freddie was worse than Hannibal. She had never been terribly fond of Freddie so it's not all that surprising. From there it started to go really down hill. It turned into an argument about how Fuller is an asshole which, well, when talking about the show that comes up a lot. Especially with me.
Sam started to try to demand that I never say anything bad about Fuller. Ever. For any reason. Even if she wasn't aware of it or didn't have to read it. That it would not be tolerated. Hank told me around the same time Lauren started to demand the same thing of him even though both parties were formerly okay with both of us having the opinion that the show was awful and we hated Bryan Fuller. Suddenly both of us were under fire for opinions we had that were previously okay to have or at very least "agree to disagree" and left up to compromise. Ultimately I don't care if Sam likes Fuller or if anyone does but for one you aren't going to convince me that he's great and for two I just want to have my opinion. I fail to see how anyone could like that douche canoe but I can't stop them it's opinion and I have known that since day one. Yet in the fandom and especially with someone like TC it was absolutely forbidden to criticize him for any reason even if he had made a blatantly stupid mistake.
This was also around the time a girl I already mentioned, Marley (AKA: Gurottesque) had decided I was plotting against her and that I was going to come and kill her? Which also happened out of nowhere. She was the one who was obsessed with Gillian Anderson and never shut up about her if you recall. We also dated which was a huge fucking mistake. Well what else was a mistake? Introducing her to Sam. Since both of them were still so into Hannibal and the only thing I really liked about the show was the roleplaying and writing my own fan fiction, they started to not like me. One day, I remember Marley was sending me pictures of Gillian from the set. They were pictures for season three and she was freaking out over the fact that you could see Bedelia (Gillian's character) wearing a wedding ring. Which wasn't even a surprise or something special. Everyone already knew by that point that she was going to pose as Hannibal's wife in season three. Yet she was flipping the fuck out about it as if she had just discovered something amazing.
I texted Sam to explain that Marley was being annoying over this and she jumped down my throat about how Marley was HER friend too and she was just excited and I was being a huge bitch. I was like whoa wait a moment here, I'm just saying there's no reason to flip your shit about a damn ring when we all already know that Bedelia is going to be Hannibal's fake wife. Why is it necessary for her to keep squealing about it like it's information none of us had? Also Sam didn't even like Bedelia so I had no clue why she was defending Marley so hard over behavior she would have previously found obnoxious or at least what I thought she would have. Especially since this was over a character she didn't even like and never had. At that point, and I quite literally have this recorded with the date and time stamped, I realized that what was happening was that Marley, Sam, and TC and that whole group were becoming friends and were all going to dump me. I have a voice recording of this because at the time I was in contact with a friend of mine I'll call Jenny, and instead of sending e-mails me and her would send voice messages back and fourth to each other. It was easier and it was neater and more personal than just sending e-mails. I happen to still have quite a few conversations with her about this going on date and timed stamped of me predicting shit that would actually happen later in life.
In January Sam started to tell me she wasn't allowed to text at work at all. Which I'm not sure if I believe her even now and I certainly didn't really believe her then. The reason I didn't believe her was because when she wanted to get rid of TC she told her the same song and dance story. She swore that it was real and she wasn't allowed to text at all and I barely called her on it but I could see what she was doing. Slowly she was online less and less and talking to me less and less. She was doing to me what she claimed to be doing to TC. Slowly responding less and less hoping I'd forget we were friends and get bored of her. This wasn't going to happen because we had such close friendship before that point I couldn't just "get bored". Which is something she should have known. Keep in mind I don't know if she was actually doing this, this is all a theory or at least how I felt from what I could see and what I already knew she'd done to TC or claimed to. I don't know if I believe she ever actually cut her off completely. I do believe she tried to at that point I don't know if she actually stopped despite saying she had stopped. I really don't know and I don't think it matters to know at this point. Whatever.
Randomly at some point, she went on a vacation without telling me until the day she did it. I knew she intended to go on one but she had indicated it was going to be a day that she didn't actually do it on. Which also pissed me off. Mostly because she promised and swore up and down that she'd be ready to role-play again after like a two month break on that specific friday and I was excited. We had a storyline going for about 8 months and she said on that friday we would definitely continue. Then she was randomly on vacation and not talking to me or anyone she claimed. Maybe it was the truth maybe it wasn't. Not sure. Once again it doesn't matter now and there's no sense in getting upset over it. These are just things I thought at the time. The point is wherever she was on this vacation (I actually know I'm just not going to include it here) she clearly had her phone or computer one of them to get online to tell me she was on vacation. I doubt that literally everyone got cut off and since we had been fighting so much it would have made sense to tell me she wasn't talking to anyone to avoid drama. She'd already blocked me on Facebook at that point so I couldn't see anything she was doing.
When she got back things blew up. Incredibly. We got in some kind of fight that lasted an entire day. A bunch of shit was said between both parties. Then that night on Skype we were still fighting until I got so fucking fed up I told her I hoped she was happy with her Christmas gift I spent 100 dollars on and I hoped she thought of how much she hated me every time she looked at it. The gift in question had been an autograph signed by Mads Mikkelsen and Hugh Dancy. Something I knew she'd want and what she'd gotten me was a card and was going to do me a painting which she never finished. Which pissed me off considering how much I actually spent on her gift. She went on to design a Christmas card for TC (despite telling me they weren't talking) and finish a painting for Marley. She dropped me like an old hat. I can't speak for her state of mind on this either but I did later see she had done these things because when you post your art on social media (or other people do) it's not as if it's hard to find out these things. Plus Marley was gushing over the painting and TC had posted a picture of the card that Sam had sent her. I found this out in maybe March of 2015 while trying to get Sam to talk to me again. Nothing was working.
As time went on I was getting second hand information from people who are well known to be liars. However, I was literally so devastated by losing Sam and the shit TC had put me through mentally I ended up in the hospital for a few days after having nervous breakdown. You see the second hand information I was getting (and the things I was seeing out of context because Sam refused to talk to me) indicated that what Sam had done was used me. This wasn't true, by the way, but without Sam there to speak for herself and all the other people doing it for her including TC, Lauren, and Laura (some of the biggest liars ever) I got all this shit thrown at me. With all the evidence I did have at my disposal it looked incredibly like this had all been planned they were all friends and they were all trash talking me behind my back. The actual truth of the matter is that they were making shit up and speaking for Sam to other people to portray me as more of a monster. I knew things didn't add up but because I had some evidence that indicated that it was possibly true and I was mentally crippled by this whole thing it wasn't hard to convince me that Sam was shady as fuck. Not to mention that she was quite obviously best friends (obviously as in all on social media) with the girl who said I was trying to kill her. She had also done art for TC's site in February or March despite saying she'd never work for her again. Marley hated TC when I knew her but then the moment she decided I was dangerous ran off to that bitch to cry to her about how horrible I was. I still haven't said anything to Marley and I don't intend to because she is utterly bat shit insane just far less dangerous and compelling than a woman who started her own actual cult for the fandom.
Nearing the end of 2015 I finally some how managed to get Sam to respond to me. I had to go above and beyond and put a horrible article about her on my website to use as a negotiating tool to get her to say anything to me. I admit that it was a dick move. I admit what I said wasn't nice it wasn't mature and it was out of desperation that I turned to doing that to get her to talk to me. However once I reached out and I said if you just talk to me I'll take down everything bad I ever said about you she was willing to talk. I did not handle myself the best I could. I did not react in the best way possible. I completely admit that though I was irrationally upset I really shouldn't have done what I did do. I have since apologized to Sam and as I said we are in touch. Sadly we are not ever going to be as close as we used to be mostly because of the massive level of distrust TC caused between the two of us BUT what I can say is we are talking. TC did not want us to be friends ever, for any reason, and that is really obvious just from reading this story. For now I have some what of a casual friendship with her and we are trying to find common ground again. I hope that we can get to more of a closer point than we are now but seeing as we both have shaky trust with each other and both for valid reasons, I really don't know if it will happen again. Not to mention that I convinced her to send me back the autograph which I also admit was a dick move and I fully intend to send it back to her at some point I just don't know when. Feels wrong to keep it.
In season one there was a staff member who worked for TC who at the time was transitioning into a male body. When TC met him it was while he was still legally a female even though he's been living as a male now for a while. He was also dating Roxy, she was his girlfriend. This staff member showed up at SDCC and the panel with Bryan Fuller and Hugh Dancy and was the one holding the phone while TC asked her really bizarre question of Hugh which was already written about. I am unsure if Roxy attended this with him or not but I did find pictures of him and Roxy with Fuller at either that convention or another one. I am unclear on the details entirely of what happened other than a few things which were relayed to me by this staff member. It seems the first convention that this guy attended was by himself and he was sent to hunt down Hugh and Fuller to make sure that they both were painfully aware of who TC was after the moment of the panel when she was on the phone with him. The staff member reports regret ever doing this for her even if it did get him Fuller as a personal contact.
TC didn't seem to like this Staff member, he's not sure why. At some point she started to attempt to convince him that he had Asperger's as well and then when he wouldn't agree with her she started to convince his girlfriend, Roxy, that he was abusive. Roxy fell for this for whatever reason and broke up with him. However, there seems to be a second convention point and Roxy didn't have a phone. Still being in touch with Roxy, the Staff member agreed to go with her to the convention so she could use the phone to have TC talk to Hugh except this Staff wasn't actually on staff any more. He was only "allowed" to attend (according to TC) so that Roxy could use his phone. So this guy followed Roxy around with his phone and wanted to be there anyway because it was Hannibal related. He was forbidden to talk about Tattle-Crime.com or represent that site in any way which he hadn't wanted to because he hated TC at that point. I am unsure if they were officially broken up at that time (him and Roxy) or it was just a period of time where TC was turning her against him.
In any case, because of this guy's interaction with Hugh the first time when he did represent Tattle-Crime, Hugh remembered him. He approached the guy and said "Tattle-Crime right?" and he informed Hugh that he didn't work for her any more and was just there with Roxy who was the official representative. Word of this got back to TC and she had a flying bitch flip over him trying to "misrepresent" her website and he was yelled at for a few hours for impersonating her or some sort of stupid bullshit. At some point in all of this Roxy dropped him and decided that she was going to date TC. The thing is that when her and TC are doing anything together she really only refers to her as Will. Once again making her a man which makes TC not a lesbian in her own weird head space.
What's odd to me is that TC really seems to want all her partners to be transgender but not real trans. Other than this guy who she started to really hate for some reason and is actually trans she did the same thing to another man that I already mentioned that I called Hank. She really went out of her way to demonize and trash actual trans men who are actually legally men and living as men. She portrayed them to be abusers or creepers and tried to convince anyone around them that this was the case even if it was anything but. At the same time she was convincing all of her partners around her, Lauren, Gail, and Roxy that they were trans because they cosplayed as men. If you tried to tell her that she was a lesbian she would freak out on you. However, she also was desperate to make Freddie Lounds in the show a lesbian because she was "tired of heteronormative bullshit" but then she'd claim she personally wasn't a lesbian. The fact of the matter is that TC is a lesbian and a borderline pedophile considering when she first tried to get Lauren to sexually role-play with her but she will claim that neither of these things are true and that anyone who questions it is some sort of transphobic bigot.
Former Staff person also reported to me that the only reason she has the picture of Hugh Dancy and Caroline Dhavernas holding the Tattle-Crime business cards is because her staff was ordered to follow them around (most likely a woman named CleoLinda), hunt them down, and get it. If you ever see this original picture you can clearly see that Hugh Dancy is giving her the finger and Caroline looks utterly annoyed. A very forced smile. You can also tell this is not at a convention setting but it's obviously in a bar that they were followed to and where they were more than likely trying to be left alone. TC believed she was entitled to all of this stuff and some how convinced her staff that she was entitled to it and said staff just did whatever the fuck she wanted. Lauren at some point reported it was just "easier to listen to her" than make her upset because she was too difficult to deal with when she was upset. Considering how much she threatened to kill herself constantly I can imagine that this was the case.
Sam and Lauren had become friends over this period of time. Even though other than the one incident where I attacked Lauren having no idea who the hell she was, I had never said anything mean to her since that point. Any interaction I had with her was heavily monitored by TC to make sure nothing was mean even though I really had nothing against Lauren and still don't. Still, TC was convinced I was going to do something bad to her when in actuality TC was the worst person to ever get involved in Lauren's life for any reason. Lauren had just still failed to realize it. Sam was still being called into staff meetings and had been given a chance to make Fuller a painting for his birthday at some point. I think that was actually before we went to MonsterMania but I can't be bothered to actually look into when that douchebag's birthday is. Lauren was also giving Sam painting lessons in Photoshop teaching her how to shade and do other things. They were getting really close. Lauren was still somewhat under the delusion that TC would get her a job with NBC but she also seemed to show some indication of knowing that it was a lie. She said that she knew that it probably wouldn't happen but she also didn't want to give up the connections to Fuller and the rest of the crew so she was just going to do what TC said. If Lauren had any sort of backbone herself, her talent alone could have gotten her way ahead of anything TC could have gotten her. Unfortunately she hitched her horse to that crazy train and never got off of it.
Sam was still doing work for TC which was why she was in staff meetings that no one was allowed to tell me about ever for any reason. I found out this was because one night for literal hours TC was begging Sam to drop me as a friend and never talk to me again. Sam, who I'd been friends with before this woman, defended me and told TC that she barely knew her and had been my friend for a while and wasn't just going to drop me. That I wasn't as bad as TC was saying or thought I was. TC didn't ever seem to really let up on this (the first time she attempted it was two weeks into meeting Sam) it just never worked. This kind of left Sam on the outs with TC even if the woman was also always trying to include her in shit. At some point Sam told me that Lauren was going to go visit TC. As in, at her house in real life. I told Sam that this was a terrible idea and Sam was in agreement but Lauren at that point was an adult (eighteen or nineteen years of age) and if she wanted to make a stupid choice she was allowed. I told Sam that she'd probably get raped or even killed. I know it sounds alarmist but trust me this woman is just weird. With the way she treated, monitored, and talked about Lauren it was clear there was a high level of very unhealthy fixation on the poor girl.
The plan as it stood from that moment in October of 2014, was that Lauren was going to drive by herself across the country to stay at TC's house for two weeks. Now this is what I was told. However the information on this as of late has been vastly different from what I was informed of at the time of the trip. Roxy (who I've mentioned) was going to go with her on this road trip and apparently be in cosplay/character as Will Graham the entire time. Roxy had already been out there to meet TC a few times (driven there from California whenever TC wanted). Keep in mind TC didn't pay for gas money or any sort of travel expenses any time anyone did anything. She didn't pay for Lauren and Roxy to go to conventions. She didn't pay for hotels. She didn't pay for gas money or food or tickets. She just expected these girls to do these things for her and they did them, and kept doing them for her. God only knows why. Maybe it's because she was in her 30's and these girls were teenagers and then very young adults when they actually met. TC's big M.O was to find either really young and stupid people (stupid as in naive) and trick them into shit or find actually mentally ill people and trick them into shit. She was obsessed with telling me I had a whole host of mental illnesses I didn't have. The top one being Asperger's. She told this to another staff member as well before firing him and convincing Roxy he was abusive so she'd come and date her, even though she was already in a relationship with Gail at that point. Gail had always been there. All the staff even from Season one knew Gail and how crazy she was as well.
Lauren (at that point) had never seen TC's face. Not even a picture. Since Roxy had already met her and Lauren had already met Roxy it was simple enough to use Roxy to assure Lauren that TC was a "safe" woman to visit and everything would be "okay" which it absolutely didn't turn out to be. I kept trying to convince Sam to convince Lauren not to go but of course no one would listen to me. Sam assured me that it would be okay because she was only a six hour drive from where TC lived and was Lauren's safety net. If Lauren felt unsafe or unsure at any time, Sam would come out there and pick her up and make sure she was taken care of. In the midst of all of this Sam was constantly complaining that she hated TC and wanted nothing to do with her. I told Sam that if it was that bad then she really should be trying harder to convince Lauren not to go and she should also just stop doing work for TC since she wasn't being paid. Sam was afraid that TC would "do something" if she quit. Though it was never really specified what Sam though TC would do or could do, Sam just assured me it was better to do what she wanted and slowly start to avoid TC until she got the hint that she wasn't interested any more. That didn't seem to be going well at all and eventually I was just like "I don't want to hear about it."
When Lauren left for the trip, Sam informed me that TC had sent a bunch of art to the producers and writers and whatever without crediting any of the artists except herself and Lauren. She was completely pissed off at that point and told me that I could finally tell TC what I really actually thought of her. For those few months after the convention TC still had no actual clue I hated her guts. I basically didn't talk to her I just randomly had a chat with her here and there on Skype or I would send her a tweet or two. That was about it. I kept it to a minimum so I wouldn't accidentally just snap and fly off the handle at her stupid bullshit like I was known to do. Sam was so upset she didn't care any more if I did snap. The problem was with the level of crazy that woman was I knew I had to be careful about it. The initial plan was to tell her straight up what reality was. That she wasn't Freddie Lounds, that she wasn't ever going to be famous, that she was severely mentally ill, and she needed to seek therapy. I don't remember exactly what my letter to her said but that was the general summary and I even had Sam read it so she in no way could post it and claim that I some how threatened her. Once Sam assured me it wasn't threatening (kind of mean but not threatening) I sent it off.
Two things were going on the day that TC got the email. For one, it happened to be her birthday, October 29th I think. The other was that Lauren had already been there for maybe a day or two. I was getting reports about what Lauren was going through at the time as well. When Lauren showed up TC refused to call her by her real name or even recognize that she was female. Basically TC referred to her as either Tux or more commonly Frederick or Chilton (the character that TC had bullied Lauren into playing for her in return for exposing her art and connecting her with the cast and crew of Hannibal). When Lauren arrived at the house, TC wanted to kiss her and hug her and when Lauren refused, TC threw a fit. Lauren at the time (as Sam had explained) was completely asexual and not at all interested in some sort of relationship, especially not with another woman. TC behaving this was made her feel disgusted and uncomfortable but it didn't stop TC from doing it anyway. It was the second or third day that Lauren was there that TC got my email. At the same time as this I was headed to a convention with Sam in Columbus because I had plans to meet Robert Englund for a photo op. The day before I left is when TC got the email. She started to accuse me of being jealous of her and all that shit as well as threatening her. Ironically she never posted proof of these threats online nor did she show anyone one the letter. Mostly because it wasn't threatening so she knew she didn't have a leg to stand on if she posted it publicly. The problem was because of Laura and the reputation that I'd already been given by her, TC didn't need to post the letter to get everyone to believe that for no reason out of the blue I had just threatened her.
Lauren told Sam that when she got the letter she locked herself in the bathroom for hours screaming and crying about how she was going to kill herself and wouldn't come out. She only would come out if Lauren agreed to cuddle with her until she calmed down. At first Lauren absolutely would not do this and thought TC's reaction was pretty funny but I imagine being in that situation wears someone down and eventually she agreed to it. After this point (and I have no idea where Gail was at all seems like she was completely fine with her girlfriend just totally hitting on Lauren the entire time she was there I don't know) TC tried to claim that the letter didn't at all bother her. She didn't know Lauren was texting Sam and telling her what was really going on nor did she know Sam was sending me these text to tell me what was happening. She believed that we had no idea she was actually upset and tried to play it down like "whatever Monica is just jealous because Lara Jean tweeted me happy birthday and not her". Seriously this was her rationalization for why I sent the letter, not that anything could possibly be wrong with her weird ass. When that whole thing failed to work, it was then suggested that we take all our evidence of TC's crazy behavior and start the blog that became the website that I have now. TattleCrime.org.
At some point, and I don't remember when, TC sent me a care package. This might have been early on when we first started doing Skype voice chat. Not sure. I do know that she also sent a letter addressed to my cat that said "meow meow meow" on it. When I jokingly told her that Wilson's official "prince" name was Prince Willoughby VonSnortsenburger (a huge inside joke from like 10 years ago with an ex of mine) she went nuts and thought it was the cutest damn thing in the world. Then she asked if she could write him a letter and if he would like that. I told him she should totally do that because I didn't think she was crazy enough to actually do it, but she did. So I still have that sitting around somewhere because it's fucking weird. In any case with that package she also sent me some of her stupid Tattle-Crime pins and some origami bird she made. She also sent me one of her business cards that she had autographed. Ones that said Tattle-Crime.com on it and that she was the "webmistress" of the site. Still have all of this in some box somewhere along with the original envelope just in case she ever tries to deny she sent me anything (which she has tried to later deny when she claimed I was stalking her for like 3 years).
It was around the end of July that she found out Mads Mikkelsen was going to be at his first convention in America and that it would be in New Jersey. Except she was paranoid that the convention runners were lying and it was a scam to get tickets then cancel on people knowing that they didn't have to offer refunds. Me and Sam were excited and I knew if Mads was going to be there I was going to find a way to go because I really wanted to meet him. I was still a huge fan of his despite the fandom being horrible dicks to me but I also knew it would really piss people off if I met him and they didn't get a chance to. Especially at his first convention in America. TC was still really skeptical and even tried to talk me out of going to the convention. Which wasn't going to work. At some point she got Rick into a staff conversation (that I wasn't allowed to attend for some reason but Sam was) to confirm or deny if Mads was going or not. Rick was TC's little bitch boy and quite possibly the most unprofessional staff ever to work at a production company and run the social media account. Some balding, fat ass, middle aged white guy who seemed overly attentive towards attractive young women int he fandom. Rumor has it he took a lot of bribes to get these girls what they wanted. He's well known in the fandom as a sleaze bag, plenty of people think he's a creeper. It's not even just me. At the time I had no idea who he was because TC only ever referred to him as DLC.
Sam, at that point, was nominated to be on TC's staff. The way TC operated was that she would find people already going to conventions (so she didn't have to pay for jack shit) then send them there with pins and business cards to hand out to promote her site. Though she called me "honorary staff" on several occasions I still wasn't actually on her staff nor did I really care to be all that much considering how bat shit insane she was. After some three hour staff meeting Sam came back and told me Mads was going to actually be at this convention and Rick had confirmed it. She was going to go and represent TC there. I asked her if there was any way she could help with me going like if we could share a hotel room or gas money or something. We worked out a deal that I would split the hotel room with her, she'd get tickets in advance and I'd pay her for those. I paid for my portion of the hotel room and the tickets and she bought them for me and I drove out there myself.
Once we had gotten to the convention all of us were very tired. We had driven like 8 or so hours to New Jersey in the middle of the night on a weekend. Due to Sam's actual life schedule she had to wait to drive out there until she got off of work. The hotel room was booked in her name so I had to drive out there late too, which I didn't mind anyway because I prefer to drive late at night when there is basically no traffic. We got maybe four hours of sleep that night until we were up at 9 in the morning the next day to get to the first autograph session with Mads. Meeting him was amazing, of course, and I cried because I'm such huge fan. I knew that TC wanted Sam to get a picture of Mads with the business card. This is were me and Sam differ on our version of the stories and I can agree to disagree with her on this but I know what I heard and Sam does confirm I am not wrong about what I heard just that I didn't hear all of it.
As I was leaving I heard Sam ask Mads to take a picture holding TC's business card. He asked who she was because he had no idea. Which of course made me laugh because I really didn't even like TC back then. Now Sam claims that after that point she got her picture with Mads and asked him again to take a picture with the card. He said yes. At the time I wasn't there but I also remember at the time her telling me Mads didn't want to take a picture. I know that TC kept sending her back into that room and I remember it being five times but Sam says it was only three. I know she was sent in there repeatedly, I know she was sent in there on TC's behalf, and I know she was sent to ask Mads questions. I do not know the specifics other than TC kept guilting her into going back into that room so she could "do her job" because at the time she was claiming that the rest of her staff "failed her" at the other convention they were attending (San Diego Comic Con).
This meant TC was on the phone yelling at Sam and to a point crying because no one liked her, her staff was totally incompetent (the staff she wasn't paying or reimbursing at all by the way) and that her life was totally ruined because no one knew how to take orders. Sam felt bad for her and kept doing what she was told even though I told her several times to just tell TC to fuck off and dump out the pins and shit she was supposed to be handing out because it wasn't worth the emotional abuse. When Sam attended the QnA later that night (I didn't go) TC tried to ask her to hold up her phone so she could call in and ask Mads a question but Sam absolutely refused. Finally showing some sort of spine towards TC after being her little slave for the entire day at the convention. Mads thanked TC on his official twitter, TC didn't credit Sam for the two photos taken that day, and Sam was really annoyed and probably would have been pissed if it weren't for the fact that she got to meet Mads as a part of this entire ordeal. After a nice weekend I headed home and continued on with my life and my role-play with Sam.
TC always had me on Skype voice at weird hours of the night and for hours at a time until early in the morning just talking. She mostly talked about nothing or about how great she/Freddie Lounds was (which were one in the same for her). Since I got bored of this but was urged not to piss her off by Sam so she could keep doing art, I just let her drone on and on about fucking nothing. It was really just garbage conversation. She'd talk about perfumes she was obsessed with or Japanese shit or try to convince me of things that totally couldn't possibly be true. Some of her weirder things was that she was an actress, model, opera singer, or some sort of other professional something before this point. This point being, where she only ran a fan blog and literally couldn't do that because she had no knowledge of anything. She didn't do her own site design, coding, art, or anything of the sort. She also didn't answer her own questions most of the time. Gail ran her social media accounts on occasion and she explained to me that she didn't even run her blog she had it scheduled to post twice a day and sometimes she would come in to check on it. Otherwise she was in her "real life" really being Freddie Lounds because that's who she really was. I really wish I was making this up but I'm not. This is honestly the most bizarre and mentally ill person I have ever come in contact with.
I knew around this point (and keep in mind this was only 12 days into talking to her via voice chat. I know this because I can see the dates on the chat transcripts on Skype) that she was completely insane and my patience was growing very thin. If you haven't already figured out why then just put yourself in my shoes. Honestly all she did was constantly berate me and tell me why I couldn't be Freddie and why I was wrong. The slightest criticism set her off and she'd scream that "MY BOYFRIEND ALMOST KILLED ME" story at me. She kept on insisting I was a monster while also trying to tell me she didn't think I was a monster. She told me weird things about how she had super special snowflake mental illnesses like Cotards which she totally did not have. I know this because the symptoms she described to me were very much in line with paranoid schizophrenia or some sort of delusional disorder. That and Cotards is insanely rare and what do you know? It just happened to be featured on season one of Hannibal. Not only that but a lot of people who are diagnosed with Cotards (or think they have it) actually turn out to be really paranoid schizophrenic. I had gotten fed up with her delusions, her paranoia, and her constant accusations that I was doing something that I absolutely was not doing. Had it not been for my loyalty to Sam I wouldn't have even lasted that long with her. Keeping me up at all hours of the night to talk because she didn't want to be alone and needed a friend.
It was maybe about the tenth day of me chatting with her that I realized I was so damn tired that I didn't even know what day it was. She had flipped my schedule enough and emotionally exhausted me to a point that I couldn't tell up from down or left from right. She was trying to emotionally weaken me and I knew at that point that the best idea would be to start cutting her off. I told Sam that I was going to tell this bitch what I really thought of her but once again Sam begged me not to make waves. She was desperate to get noticed for her art by the Hannibal fandom and sadly we both still believed TC was the best way to get exposure. I knew I was going to have to do something so I started to tell TC that I couldn't be on voice chat with her all hours of the night because it was making me sick to be losing as much sleep as I was. Which wasn't exactly a lie either. Not only was I emotionally drained I was physically fucked up as well due to other problems I have.
One evening, it was around dinner time, maybe a bit after I was on the chat line with her and Laura. We were talking about something, I don't know what nor do I care to remember. I know that I said something that upset her. However, here's the thing. I don't know what the fuck I said. Usually I know what I've said or when I'm being mean because I am not so unaware of my bitchy personality that I cannot recall what set something off. Even if I won't admit what I did I still know. This time, I have no literal clue because it happened in the middle of a very normal conversation. TC started to accuse me of being angry. I told her I wasn't angry or upset. She kept telling me to calm down and that I didn't need to get so angry. I was not angry with anything. Okay to be fair I was getting kinda pissed off that she was accusing me of being angry and upset when I real wasn't. Laura was there trying to help to explain that I wasn't upset but that wasn't working either. TC threw a huge bitch flip and started to scream for like ten or twenty minutes. It was longer than any rant I've ever heard her go on. She was crying and sobbing and whatever the fuck so I just muted her and went to do something else. This wasn't uncommon either, by the way. Several times I completely tuned her out or muted her while she was explaining something to me and just checked back periodically to see if she had shut up. If she ever noticed that I had completely stopped listening to her she never tried to call me on it. I honestly think she was so self absorbed that it didn't matter if people were listening to her if she thought they were. After she was done having her fit she said she had to go. When she signed off I asked Laura what I had done to piss her off so much and Laura didn't even know. We couldn't think of a damn thing I had said or done to make her that upset. Then I signed offline and went about my normal life.
TC didn't get on Skype for about a day after that which was a relief but also kind of worried me. Mostly because of how much she talked about depression, wanting to be dead, and suicide. She had very specific plans to kill herself if Freddie died in the show because she claimed that if Freddie died then it would be the death of her and she would no longer have any actual reason to live any more. I mean very specific. Scary specific. It was pretty fucked up. So I was concerned that she had killed herself or attempted to. Then after that day she came back on late one night to tell me she had been sick and was thinking about going to the ER. She said that it was nothing personal against me and she wasn't upset with me just that she was sick. I totally didn't believe that but agreed with her anyway because it was just easier and I wasn't supposed to fight with her because Sam had begged me not to and I was friends with Sam. I told her if she really was that sick then the ER was probably a good idea. She kept on saying she hated to go to the hospital and all that crap while also whining that she was not okay. I wanted to scream at her to just go to the goddamn ER already but couldn't. Finally she signed off saying that she was going to get Gail to take her to the hospital.
Two more days passed and I didn't hear a word from TC. I barely noticed because I was happy not to be talking to her. That was until Sam texted me about something or other and my brain reminded me that I had not spoken to TC in two days. I asked Sam how she was doing. Instead of getting an actual response to that question Sam quickly told me that it would be a good idea for me to never talk to that woman again. I asked her why not. Sam claimed that TC said that I had (on purpose) triggered her into having a seizure and that's why she was sick. She also claimed that I knew her triggers and was triggering her on purpose all the time because I was some kind of sadistic bitch. None of which was true because I never knew her triggers for one, and for two that bitch was triggered by goddamn everything under the sun. If you said the word "cat" on the wrong day she would be fucking upset with you because I don't know her cat died at some point and she was triggered by remembering the death of her cat. Something like that I don't know. I told Sam that she knew that I wasn't doing it on purpose, right? Sam knew but she thought it would just be best for everyone if I didn't talk to TC any more, at least not on Skype as my voice seemed to be the biggest problem for her but chatting was okay. I was relieved because it was easier to duck out of a chat than a voice conversation.
