A little follow up drabble to the earlier doodles cuz these two are heckin adorable and I will die for them
Taylor was practically giddy as he spun around to face Gladstone.
“Are you sure it’s okay to have all this? It seems excessive.”
“Threads, it’s fine, honest,” Gladstone rose from the chair and approached him with a lazy grin, “even if we hadn’t gotten lucky and they had excess stock to take from, I wouldn’t care. Besides, you can never have enough outfits! One for every day of the week, right?”
Taylor cocked his head, eyes curious and surprised.
“Is that true? How do you keep up with that?”
“N-no, no, I….well, I guess some people do that. But me, nah I just kinda reach in the closet and throw on whatever I grab. My luck? It always looks great.”
He flushed a bit, toying with his sleeves or tugging at the leg of his shorts.
“Y-you’re sure this…I look okay?”
Gladstone smiled, resting hands on his shoulders.
“I think you look great; but what about you? You like it?”
Taylor nodded, frowning a bit, as if confused by the question.
“And it makes you happy?”
Another nod, and Gladstone grinned wider, shrugging.
“Then that’s all that matters. Now,” he turned to the pile of clothing store bags, “let’s get these hung up before they wrinkle, eh?”
Taylor nodded, smiling a bit as he picked up a few of them. They made their way to the small room that had been fashioned into a sparse bedroom for him, with a small but comfy bed, and a shelf that was mostly empty, save for a handful of books, and various knickknacks he’d come upon that he was eager to keep and display.
After getting things put away, Gladstone let out a content sigh as he turned to Taylor.
“Welp, that should set you up for a little while. Maybe we can look into some wall décor or some….thing…”
He trailed off as he observed him; Taylor was perched on the bed, eyes distant and though he wore a faint smile, it didn’t give off a sign of happiness. Frowning, Gladstone went over and took a seat beside him.
“Hey, you good? What’s up?”
“I…” He hesitated, sighing, “I just…you’re being so generous and kind to me and I don’t… I just don’t know if I deserve it.”
“Whaaaat? Course you do, why wouldn’t you?”
He glanced up with a weak smile.
“Because of everything you went through in Macaw and I’m a constant reminder of it?”
“A reminder of the fact that even when things look super bleak, there’s always something to cling to for hope of it getting better?”
Taylor tilted his head curiously, puzzled; Gladstone smiled, putting an arm around him.
“I hit a lot of lows while I was there; and until you started helping me out—talking to me about whatever little subject we could think of, dropping off my stuff directly when you really didn’t need to, staying with me when I didn’t….didn’t wanna be alone.”
Taylor shrugged a little, as if it was nothing special.
“Everyone else there was set on either keeping me entertained or trapped; you were different, though. You actually cared, actually wanted to HELP me, and you DID. So yes, you deserve all this.”
“No supposing, you do; and I’m happy to do it, so stop worrying, ‘kay?”
Smiling, Taylor gave a small nod, and Gladstone flashed a grin as he squeezed his shoulders.
“Alright, then, sooo….whatta you wanna do now?”
“Um….I’m not sure, what…is there to do?”
“Well, we could go out to that Italian place, have a nice little dinner date….”
He slid closer, gaze soft as his arm snaked around his waist and the other took a gentle hold of his jaw. Taylor blushed heavily, giving an anxious giggle.
“Oooor we could just heat up some takeout and stay in, put on a movie….have the night to ourselves…”
“I….think I like that…that second one better…i-if that’s okay with you.”
Gladstone’s response was a kiss, hand moving to hold the back of his head and deepen it. Taylor started a bit, before returning it, arms clumsily moving to wrap around him; his grip was feather light, uncertain. He’d seen couples before, watched their movements, and more recently viewed several soap operas…it didn’t LOOK difficult but trying to replicate it was.
It clearly wasn’t a problem for Gladstone.
He pressed forward, pushing them both down on the bed. A small sense of anxiety started forming, tightening his chest, despite his efforts to push it down. It was just jitters, he thought, nothing to be concerned for, or trouble Gladstone about.
Gladstone broke the kiss, moving slightly lower and digging his beak into his neck feathers. This elicited a light squeal, and the ball of anxiety grew.
What am I supposed to do now? Should I…should I do the same? O-or should I kiss him? I-I don’t know…!
Shaking hands hesitantly rested against his shoulders.
A-am I doing this right? What if I mess up?! I can’t disappoint him though…b-but I don’t know what to do, or if I’m ready for this form of intimacy or….! I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know….!
“….w-wait! Waitwaitwait stop—!”
Gladstone quickly pulled away, sitting up with a concerned frown; Taylor had scrambled to the other side of the bed, facing away from him. He was shaking, and Gladstone tentatively laid a hand on his arm.
“Hey…you okay? I-I’m sorry, was I moving things too fast? I was, wasn’t I? I’m sorry—!”
Taylor took a shaky breath, before turning over and pushing himself up.
“N-no, no, I’m sorry! I just don’t what to do here, but I…I’m fine, we can—we can start over, I’ll do better this time, I promise…!”
“Hey, hey, listen to me,” Gladstone gripped his shoulders firmly, an uncharacteristically serious expression to his face.
“If you don’t want to do anything, that’s FINE. We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.”
“B-but you want to…if that’s what you want to do then we’ll do it, I’m fine, really!”
“No, Taylor, if you’re not into this, then we’re not gonna do it!”
Taylor wore a wide eyed stare, looking lost, scared, and confused all at once.
“But….it’s what you want, isn’t it?”
“I don’t WANT to do anything that YOU don’t want. If you just wanna veg out on the couch with frozen pizza and sappy chick flicks then we will.”
“But I….it’ll make you happy; I want to make you happy!”
“And I want YOU to be comfortable!”
The two fell silent for a moment; Taylor still looking shellshocked, and Gladstone somewhere between concern and slight anger.
Then it melted away, and his grip loosened.
“Is that….how things were, before…? When you worked for him?”
He winced, but after a moment, slowly nodded.
“Nothing else…nothing else mattered. My only purpose was to appease his wishes, do whatever he needed me to do. I….I wasn’t required to think, or consider other options, or…..i-it didn’t matter if I didn’t like something, or what I wanted, or….it just…didn’t matter.”
Gladstone listened silently, before shaking his head.
“Well that’s not how things work here, okay? If you don’t like something, or don’t want something, or vice versa….just tell me. I’m not gonna get mad, or yell at you, or make you do anything you don’t like.”
He reached up to cup his face, lightly stroking it with his thumb.
“And I’m not gonna hurt you if you don’t. I promise.”
Taylor didn’t respond for a moment; then, he gave a small laugh, bordering on a sob. He slowly nodded, grasping his hands tightly. Gladstone smiled, and gave his forehead a quick peck.
“So, what do you want to do?”
“Can we….can we just lay here?”
And so they settled in; Gladstone stretched out, with Taylor tucked close beside him, a hand running through his feathers, the way he always liked. He felt safe, and warm, and….
He felt the slight tremors of a laugh, and the arm around him tightened.