#tbilife

[realmshifter7]

Just to name a few..

[marvelismycrack]

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Almost 6 years ago to this day I was almost Killed protecting my black best friend against a group of actual racists who were let off by the local police that night while I was in the ambulance close to death, I will never have justice or closure. #mystory #tbisurvivor #tbilife#disabilityawareness #racism #northportpolicedepartment #truthmatters #trauma #ptsd #braininjury #TCV#rizzlers #tiktok (at Kenny Pool Hall) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCND4d6AwZj/?igshid=1jfe0t92zdja

[realmshifter7]

Sooo true..

[realmshifter7]

[realmshifter7]

Disconnected

So I have been feeling like crap the last few weeks.. rarely getting out of the house. Haven't gotten dressed in 2 days.. really don't feel connected to anyone. I even cancelled my massage today. That like never happens.. I hate this.. it's like I'm watching life pass me by.. watching others do their thing., and I'm just here.. observing it.. that's just how it is.. I tried to kinda connect w someone yesterday but didn't happen..

[realmshifter7]

MLK day..

I was attacked on MLK day..I never know how I'm going to feel.. today was actually fine.. I mean physically I felt like crap but emotionally I was ok. Last week someone mentioned being off on Monday & I asked why.. I got a blank stare.. so I knew it was mlk day. She said she didn't know if it would bother me. Which was really sweet.. sometimes the actual date is when it's really hard. Have I really lost 9 years of my life? Where did they go? So full of drs appointments, procedures, physical therapy, counseling, surgeries.. it's all been a blur. Most people got promoted, got married, had kids, went back to school. Then there's me. 9 years of trying to recover from this crap. It's been 9 years and I've lost friends, the invites for things seem to be fading more & more.. why don't they tell you that at the dr? Ps your life is about to drastically change & most people in your life won't be able to handle your reality. I was all excited to go to the museum last week & as soon as I walked in it hit me. I had to really fight the blackout. Had to sit down a few times. Security officer got me water.. yeah super embarrassing.. when we left I was so exhausted from fighting not to blackout.. spent the next few days curled up in a ball on the couch.. just how it goes..

[realmshifter7]

Augh.. winter I hate you.. it's sooo hard to get motivated to do anything. It's so draining & painful.. I have plans Saturday I've been looking forward to but now I'm like eh.. I hope it's not raining & freezing. Right now I just don't care about anything.

[realmshifter7]

Things have been tough lately. I'm having issues w my right hand. I'm having issues w my speech.. my mom has been telling me that she doesn't know how I go through this everyday. Migraines have been everyday. My eyes have been super sensitive to light. Today I tried to get out.. but didn't last long. The temp dropped fast & i suddenly had crazy pain. The pain has been awful the past week or so. I'm sure it's the weather going back & forth.. I hate winter.. it's so long & painful..