Nov 10, 2021
do you ever regret letting your alters front on your main account.
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do you ever regret letting your alters front on your main account.
my brain is a mess and I'm (teal) extremely depressed, feel bad about everything and idk why bother existing. meanwhile find myself looking at home decor for spring because Perri enjoys it and thinks it'll make us (all of me and my partners) happy, back and forth we go with me being cynical (my point being partners prob won't like our decor opinions/wants). and everytime there's a decorations with bunnies, one of the kids is just. BUNNIES. all caps but in my head. and I'm trying to not direct the self hate and cynical at them but it's hard to deal with both of them.
I have become someone I hate, someone I loathe. I've always hated myself, but it is nothing compared to how/who I am now.
pace myself but what if I can't what if I can't pace myself because if I did i couldn't do Anything nothing would get done tasks would be unfinished and then the time between finishing would ruin the work I do. there's no hope. I feel more and more like me having any hope is laughable
I wish Perri would take over I don't want to be me anymore I hate existence):
fuck it. moving our sys blog because we changed our system name.
what the fuck is going on with this blog
me, reblogging system positivity to my main account:
me: they don't even know.