#teardrop rambles

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Me: Fuck yea. I'm gonna write this cool fic about [insert really cool AU idea].

Me 45 pages into it: Wait what was this about?

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Honestly. I think I would have enjoyed All For The Game a whole lot more if it was just about Exy. The crime/mob boss part was so all over the place it kinda made it all go sour for me. 

So many spoilers and negative thoughts ahead. Just... do not read.

Also, why would Neil agree to be under the thumb of that guy for the rest of his life when he’s literally spent have of his life running from that. What happens if you get injured in the next four years and don’t make court. And excuse me how dare you just sign Kevin and Jean’s life away like that. Ugh. I’m emotionally ruined today because of these stupid books. 

Like I really wish I had just not read them. 

And I know Andrew is like the fandoms little precious baby, but fuck him. Like why does everyone love him. TBF I was kinda on board the Andrew train until he attacked Kaitlyn in the library. I was shaking I was so furious. And like I get the whole idea of being a Fox, but Andrew’s unpredictability for violence is just not safe. I love Coach, but the fact that he turned a blind eye to Andrew is just irresponsible.  And Aaron and Nicky are right, he is a sociopath. 

Also, I STILL can’t understand Kevin and Andrew. I read through these pretty quickly so I could have missed it.. but there was no real reason given to why Andrew protected Kevin apart from the weak “I give him something to come back to while he’s in withdrawals”(paraphrasing here) bs. 

Also, Kevin’s redemption arc felt a little cheap to me. I honestly kinda liked Kevin in book 1, but his cowardice towards Riko and his damn near constant negativity towards the team was annoying. I think I would have like it better if there was a more gradual change in him instead of a “oh ha, btw I’m just gonna get drunk and get my tattoo changed because I found my spine finally lol.” 

AHH everything is so inconsistent I don’t even know where to start.

Even Nicky! I who I liked a lot. I’m going to pretend that Aaron was making it up when he said that Neil and Andrew were in it for the hate sex because I need to hold on to at least one of the precious glimmers of hope from this nonsense. 

Okay... I’m done rambling for now. 

Except this totally should have been two books instead of three.

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Fic Writers Self-Rec Meme

tagged by No one (:( although maybe quicklikelight I got the idea from her. Thanks Anne!)

1. Your favorite fic you’ve written

Probably Just Like Every Year (glee). I loved writing this because it helped me move past a lot of personal issues I was having IRL. 

2. Your least favorite fic you’ve written

Probably To Them I'm Just Harry Potter (Harry Potter). Kinda gave up on this one. It was my first fic I’d ever tired writing and I wasn’t really able to handle constructive criticism at that age. So my first comment was like this harry sucks (not the actual comment) and I just stopped writing. *shrugs* I’ll finish it someday maybe. (probably not)

3. Your most popular fic

Just Like Every Year  I think, if we’er going on kudos, but Runaways (teen wolf) has more reader interaction (which is awesome) 

4. The fic you wish more people would read

So many! Hahaha I feel like I work really hard on them and it sucks when no one reads them. It took me forever to write Before Forever  and it’s not really all that well received. Although that one did kind of get away from me towards the end. For Immediate Release (the Hunger Games) --  I just read this one a few days ago and I kind of had this moment of “whatever you guys this is awesome” haha. Runaways because it’s my babyyyyy. 

5. The fic you most enjoyed writing

Probably Runaways because BRAEDEN and I like writing for multiple characters. But at the same time that fic became a fucking monster because I waned to write about everyone. 

6. Your funniest fic

Oh... um Karma and Instant Friends (teen wolf)? I don’t know. I feel like some of my stories has funny parts, but that was is an absolute shit-show crack!fic based on Shrek that I was up writing until 4AM so....

7. Your hottest fic

Well ... For Immediate Release  has accidental voyeurism (am I right?!) But Just Like Every Year  and Before Forever have actual E ratings (but are both still vanilla imo)

8. Your saddest fic

Ugh. Desiderium (Inception). 

9. The fic you’d like to be remembered for

Just Like Every Year. Sure.

10. The thing(s) your fic contributed to fandom headcanon

Absolutely nothing, but I will gladly sit here and wait for someone to prove me wrong. :)

Tagging: anyone who wants to do it.

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Does anyone want to beta the next chapter of Runaways?

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When can we expect the next Runaways update? I'm in love with this story, I love Derek's and Braeden's relationship. I can't wait for the next update.

AHHHH. I’m sorry guys! I know it’s taking me forever. I hit a wall. But I’ve written a lot over the past few days. So hopefully very soon. I love that you guys still care about my silly little story. Really you have no idea how messages like these help. 

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Do u write fanfics?

Shameless. Self. Promotion.

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I just wanted to tell you how much I'm enjoying Runaways. I really appreciate how you didn't abandon the story. It seems to me that people aren't as hyped for Draeden now that its known that Hoechilin isn't a series reg. When I do see fics where Draeden is the main characters/ love interest its 80% sex 20% character/ relationship deveopment. Runaways is the perfect balance. Plus you've brought the side characters to the front fleshed them out and I looove it. I can't wait to what happens next

I am so unbelievably happy that people like this fic. From the very first day I started outlining it, I fell in love with it. It’s also massive, so the fact that you guys take time to read it makes it worth it! Also fun fact: I hadn’t heard the news about Thoech (because I live under a rock apparently)! But fear not as I am not surprised or upset by this! I do plan on continuing with this bad boy. I love this pairing so much, and really all of the characters I have in it (my bb Meredith <3_<3 )But Gah! Thank you so much for reading, and leaving comments, and for this message. You truly don’t know how much it means to me and how much it inspires me to keep going. I hope you guys continue to like it!

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For any of you following my college!au... I think you might  kill me after this next chapter, but I’m so stoked.