vent ig?
i'm in this dsmp roleplay server with my friend because they asked me to replace the bbh when they leave. i agreed bc i never rlly talk or do anything with this friend.
being there and talking so much about the dsmp forced into a kinshift for the first time in a few years, which isn't really a big deal for me. i think the hardest part about all this though is that it's so disorienting to see and hear someone else be called by your name.
like i wont ask to switch roles since a lot of people wanted to be me and i'm not active enough to keep up with how much work i put in to the dsmp way back when between my poor mental health and the fact that i'm just not that good at minecraft.
not to mention i just don't really feel comfortable with the people in the server. a large number of the people in the server are fujoshis who primarily talk about shipping everyone together. i just don't want my discomfort towards everyone else to severely impact the overall environment.
but i can't leave because then my friend would be upset and that'll leave another empty character slot [currently 5 open]. kinda just trying to suck it up rn but ugh
~ technoblade [he/it] [dreamsmp, mcyt]
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