#tedvvane

[blackcoffeecloud]

to those who reblog my selfies: you're the true mvp.

[blackcoffeecloud]

awe i'm sorry you've had it pretty rough bae :/ it's okay. i can give you stupid cliche stuff. it really gets better. and when you get better you'll be so happy and realize that the bad times helped shape you into the person you are. you're such a good person already i can't imagine what you're going to be like in a few years when you're also happy an loving yourself. You deserve so much and I hope everything you want in life comes your way :0)

This is honestly one of the sweetest things i've ever gotten. I'm in such a weak place right now, and your words are so appreciated. thank you. I just feel like i will never truly be happy because i never actually have been. i mean, being happy to see someone or do something is one thing, but truly happy, with yourself and how you are? I feel like that will happy the same day that paraplegics suddenly walk (sorry bad analogy i know) but I honestly just hate myself. I can't successfully keep a job *my family desperately needs it), due to my eating disorder, I forgot a lot of what i learned academically (brain shrinkage) so basically, as someone whose life is dedicated to successful academia, this crushes me. i'm so sorry for just bitching on and on. i just feel alone right now. gah. i really am sorry. okay i'm stopping now. but thank you for everything you said - you're so thoughtful, and I wish all the same to you. <33