#tee txt

[ch4lk34t3r]

this is @cartoon posting from my gfs blog --- this is the second time I’ve been terminated wrongfully for no reason, and with no explanation. Last time when I emailed tumblr they fixed it without saying anything, and at the very least I hope they fix it and I get my blog back again.

I know people’s accounts have been going down for linking systems --- like containing posts that link to other websites, and it makes me wonder if Tumblr is trying to strike me down because of about 1.5 years ago when I had to make donation posts to get my brother back from our abusive father. 

I don’t know. I’ve emailed them multiple times and have got the default response that my email is going through, but its difficult when the new Support system asks you to be logged into the account they’ve logged you out of.

[dodrio]

I just had a bad dream involving my abusive bio. father and my older brother being victim to him/the representation of him or something.

Anyway, I told my mom and then listened to my gut and all the times my sister has said I can come to her about anything, anytime, and came to her and her boyfriend is here and she listened and consoled me and gave me a hug and insisted on walking me back to my brother and I’s room.

When she saw the window where my bio. father (more like an evil being pretending to be him) appeared in my dream she offered to get poster board to cover it up and she did! And came back and set it up and her and her boyfriend hugged me which was really sweet and reassuring.

Yeah, we all suffer from PTSD, but we also all protect and nurture and heal and comfort each other. No evil can touch us, no shadow of darkness fall upon us, no hurt and unholiness ail us. We are safe and loved, tucked under the holy wings of the Almighty and His holy angels. We’re all okay and healing and protected together and a part, my girlfriend, too! And Randy! Are a part of this protection!

Anyway, my point is I’m really grateful right now and feel so much better and am totally gonna share this with my gf today when we go over the three things we’re grateful for bc we forgot in our illness yesterday! That means 6 grateful things to name!! I always look forward to sharing that part of our day - thankful reflection - with her!