Am probably gonna start deleting all of my old blogs soon - as for this one I’ll keep it for now
As for a status update for the people who randomly check in on me (I say this both positively and negatively): crazy but for the first time in my life I can actually say with 100% certainty that I’m doing well. In the past, it’s been something of a mixed bag for a myriad of reasons. But I’m financially secure, have a support system, have a lot of meaningful friendships, am in a city I love, have opportunities in fields I always wanted to have opportunities in, have genuine confidence and self compassion where I legitimately do like myself quite a lot, and have no one else in my life to hold me back from any of these things. I’ve learned a lot about my own self worth. I do things I want to do everyday. I don’t feel alone at all for once. I wake up knowing I’ll get to have fun every morning.
I’ve changed a lot. The me of 10 years ago would be shocked by who I am now but that’s kind of just how life goes. I turned 28 recently and had a lot to think about, but mostly, I just landed on: despite everything, I’m happy. I’ve rid myself of a lot of things I needed to be rid of, and I’ve gained things that I’ve always needed.
I’m glad. I hope I continue to change.
