I'm thinking about how Kita, who was raised to appreciate the little things, to pay attention to detail and to express gratitude even for the smallest things, to benerate what brings joy and comfort and safety into his life. Gratitude is second nature to him, and I'm thinking about the way all that translates into the moments of intimacy you share with each other.
Once you're all stripped bare in front of him for the first time, giving yourself to him with no restriction and his gaze is weighing upon you with the force of a steady wave, he takes such a long time dancing over your skin with the tip of his fingers, making the hairs on your body stand up, bringing your sensitivity to the surface. He seems to be hesitating for a moment before placing the palm of his hands fully on you.
He's conflicted, you asume, you see it in the way his brows are slightly furrowed, but you give him a second to himself. And the thing is that there's something contradicting in what he has been taught: yes he should be grateful but he should refrain from being greedy. But now, while you're standing in front of him, giving yourself to him, he's feeling selfish, and he wants all of it and more, he wants you in every possible way.
"You can touch me, Shin", you place you hand over his to help him land his palm fully on your warm body. Finish what he started. You creep you other hand up his neck and cup his cheek, beckoning him gently to look up at you "I want you to, please".
His eyes are almost glossy, glistening with a mix of tenderness and desire. Upon further contemplation, you seem to comprehend what's going on in his mind. It's not that he's reluctant to go further, he's admiring and taking in everything about this moment, even now, he's silent looking at you with such yearning that's enough to make you eyes prickle a little with the hint of tears.
"Let me see you for a little longer, love". And how could you tell him no, when he says something like that, turning his face to brush the pulse of you wrist with his lips. "We've got all night". He's decided that he'll be selfish and thank the gods for the divine gift that you are appropriately.

















