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Book 01, in the beginning it was a ray

Se hoje adormecer para sempre a certeza de mim sinto em todos os poros

Os olhos dela tinham uma espuma de quem acaba de nascer. Um tom cinzento de quem nunca antes vira luz e era ela, no entanto a definição de luz.

Sem saber nada, era tanto, sem tocar em nada, sentia tudo e nesse parto as únicas dores não ficaram no corpo de mais ninguém.

Na febre quente de verão, a melancolia da novidade e a pálida condição, até a pálida condição; tudo feito e desenhado para que cada músculo a fazer fosse em si mesmo a descoberta da matéria carnal. Esse vento escuro que nunca rondou tanto até explodir numa força incrível, num magnetismo de profusão e incêndio; o novo recém nascido, o sangue e todo o vapor de nojo que tanto se venera - nascimento, vísceral de âmago eterno e fluorescente - um brilho que cega e mata e forma de novo, tudo de novo.

A pele dela tinha a imaturidade da segurança, e a flacidez do descuido e a incerteza de uma vida. Era isso tudo e sem consciência de nada, cresceu raízes que furaram tudo; os olhos e as mãos, o peito e o músculo e na erótica invasão de êxtase, mais de novo as fundações chamaram. Nessa altura de encontro, nada mais que nevoeiro, a pele que cai e repõe camadas que esfolaram até à carne mais viva e mais cruel, real.

Se hoje sentir o ar que voa entre os dedos, lembra o mindinho e a força de ser ave; fecha os olhos nesse instante de consciência sagrada, a mais fiel de todas, a que sente o vento enrolar.

Os pés e as mãos, os seios e a barriga, o cabelo e os lábios eram tara perdida, eram de nada, de ninguém, nem mesmo de alguém. Tudo eram partes da estrada em pé calçado até ao dia em que a roupa se foi, o chão passou a saber a terra e todo o corpo era nu para o mundo, para a floresta marcante de uma voz de leão. Ah os bichos, essa força destemida, audaz e implacável da sobrevivência sem consciência de mal. Não há. Mal. Um leão que dorme é aquele que encontra o que possa caçar - leoa brava.

A tarde de sol ia alta e a fome não ia a lado nenhum, instalada a perda, a mudança, a excessiva despreocupação de doença. Os dias iam longe e os olhos de todos tinham uma espuma de quem acaba de morrer. Um tom claro de quem nunca mais verá luz - um enterro de si mesma, uma fonte de terra e pó, um fim de início e uma febre cegante.

Nem aqui estava, perto do normal; na distância da descoberta que ouvia, vezes sem fim música de ouvidos só para si. E aí o trovão caiu, aí ouviu um som que nunca antes, um encontro do desconhecido e nesse mesmo momento, o flash de infinitas horas, ribombou como pedras de saraiva e, a primeira luz entrou, e a primeira luz refletiu.

Se hoje adormecer para sempre a certeza de mim sinto em todos os poros

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Iran/témoignage : « Ils ont arrêté, torturé et exécuté mon frère de 16 ans »

http://www.csdhi.org/index.php/actualites/executions/7913-iran-temoignage-ils-ont-arrete-torture-et-execute-mon-frere-de-16-ans

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My conversion told through Sasuke Uchia Pt 1

I was a kid, just cute and playful. I was loving and hopeful, but life was ready to

hit me hard. And that it did through my young years.

Many sins brought utter sadness to my youth. I would perpetrate many sins of my own, and angst and anger filled me like venom in a snakes fangs. Life was hard and at times, it pushed my sanity to breaking point. I was covered in darkness, depression, and all types of suffering.

I was told about God, but, I felt he hated me, and his description of "loving and caring" was a lie, an allusion used to trick me,

I embraced the darkness and just tried to live for myself.

But that didn’t do anything but leave me even sadder than before. Hardships through those years finally left me in this humble state where I knew I needed someone to help me. I was finally taught about God-Truthfully.

My eyes were opened- I realized everything.

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I have to write it down

Hello my name is judith, i live in the netherlands. Im 21. One and a half year ago, I succeeded from my study. I didnt knew what to do next because there where no jobs in that airia. So i worked at a Cafetaria and asked God what i should do for the coming time. I spoke to a lot of people and that i knew whati wanned to do. A bible school. So i surced and surced. I found the orginasation youth with a mission. They did dts's a disiplesship training school. But now withs county. One day on my bike. I told God. "God i would like to go to austrailia, america or newsealand everything ecsept africa. But i want your choise". So i asked "God withs country do you want me to go" and befor i could finnes my sentens i heard South Africa. And i was like 'no way' but the more i asked and the more i prayed. South africa came always in my mind. One day i whent to a friend and ahe sayed and do you know the country. So i told her " i think i know" 'ow tell me' "its ganne be south africa" "o my Goz how funny i thought the same thing". So for me that was a conformation. So i whent on the internet and lookt in south africa for dts's and the one in durban jumped out for me. I made the dissision. To go to durban in january of 2014. To be continued..

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Where Feet May Fail

(AN: I don't usually post long personal posts or faith-related essays, because this is primarily a fandom blog, but I wrote this today and in the hopes that it might be encouraging to other people in similar situations, decided to post it) 

During last Christmas break, I made a big decision. I decided that I was going to finish off my second year of college with the Spring semester, and then take a year off. I had many reasons for this. First, I was beginning to feel that perhaps Creative Writing wasn't the major I should go with—not because of any boredom with writing itself (I will write till my last breath) but because I felt that there were many other things that interested me that I hadn't taken the time to explore—so I wanted to give myself time to think that over. I thought it would be better to do this while not in school so as to avoid wasting time and money on uncertainty. Second, I was sick of being stuck in small towns. I wanted big cities, I wanted “adventure in the great wide somewhere” so I made plans to start looking for some sort of travel-work opportunity.

During all these plans and the rush of the spring semester, I went to my usual campus ministry worship service one night, and heard for the first time the song “Oceans”. I loved it. The bridge, especially, felt tailor-made for me at that time “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me” to me, that seemed to fit almost literally to my adventure to the UK “Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger, in the presence of my savior” and that I took as an indication of the awesome power God was using to take me where I never could've gone without His help.

Cut to a few months later, and problems start arising. I had been told to apply for a visa so that I could enter the UK. I did so, and that visa was denied. I reapplied, and that one was denied also. It turned out that I wouldn't have needed one, in fact, but after being turned down, there was no way they would let me in. The whole thing was off, and I was devastated. 

From mid-July on, I struggled to come to terms with this and to figure out what to do next—sitting at home, trying and failing to get some sort of job, was not where I wanted to be. I wanted to be anywhere else—to try to find a job in another city or state, or another overseas opportunity, but I knew I didn't have the funds or the means to do so, and nothing was working out. Don't get me wrong, I was fairly at peace with it most of the time, but it was still painful in some moments.

Then, this Monday, I went to a new service for young adults at a church in town. They sang “Oceans”. Suddenly, everything I had thought I understood about the words of that song rearranged in my head. “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders” didn't mean I was going to leave the borders of my country, it meant I needed to trust Him without limiting that trust to within a certain border—say, the UK. Whoa. “Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me” didn't have to mean crossing the water literally—maybe it meant the act of walking on waters of spiritual and emotional uncertainty and turmoil. “Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander” that one seemed so obvious now. My feet could wander to other countries; He wanted to take me somewhere I could never travel on this earth. “And my faith will be made stronger, in the presence of my savior” I was going to be pulled more into His presence through this, and learn to have more faith in Him than perhaps I would have if all my plans had worked out.

I still haven't found a job (although I may be getting closer) and I still have no idea what the next step in my life is. But I have found a new perspective, and I think I'm ready to trust Him again. It's hard when you've got big plans and you think that you've heard God confirming them, only to have it all fall apart. It can make you believe that you screwed up big time and maybe didn't even hear Him speaking to you in the first place, but here's the thing: you may have misunderstood what He said, but it's still His voice, and He knows you were trying, so take heart, child—His plans for you are even greater.

Here's another little story that I have to remind myself of frequently in these types of situations. 

A few years ago, as we were driving to church, my mom had a Christian radio station on. Just as we were pulling into the parking lot, a new song came on, one that I'd never heard before. I liked the sound of it and wanted to hear the whole thing, but as we had arrived my mom cut off the engine and simultaneously the radio, so I only heard the first line. For some reason this made me very grumpy—I didn't know who the song was by or what it was called, so I'd never be able to find it again. Pretty quickly, though, I got caught up in church preparation and forgot about it.

Later that day, a group of us from church went downtown Nashville to the Christian music festival known as Winter Jam. At one point, Kari Jobe got on the stage and began to play—and I began to laugh. It was the song I had heard on the radio that morning. I had been so disappointed that I hadn't been able to hear it on the radio, and all the while God was planning for me to hear it live in concert later that day. There was know way I could've known, and I think that applies to a lot of things. Maybe this trip to London is just the first line of a song on the radio, and God's got a live concert planned.   

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dean k :)

ate on July 8, 1989 I met with Bret Glenn, Winston J. II Clay, and Scott Brogan on the construction site of what is now Bellevue Christian Center, in Bellvue, NE. Sometime after midnight on July 9, 1989 Winston or Bret asked, "You ready?" I had been reading the Bible for over a year. I knew Jesus was the Way, the Truth, and the Life, but I had been stubbornly resisting. I was finally ready to surrender.

I prayed my salvation prayer: "OK, God, if You still want me, I am here."

That was all I knew. It was enough.

I woke the next morning to find I was no longer addicted to drugs and alcohol. Around 2 in the afternoon I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. That evening I was baptized in water. My life has never been the same.

Since that day I have experienced triumph and tragedy, brotherly love and betrayals of the worst kind, the finality of death and the sloppiness and beauty of life, more joy, bitterness, and emotions and circumstances I can't begin to express. Through all of this HE has been with me.

God is REAL. God is KNOWABLE. God is GOD. God is FAITHFUL. God is LOVE. God is easily found thru His Son, Jesus. All it takes is a simple, heartfelt prayer, "Here I am." His answer is always the same: "I am with you."

Looking forward to the next 25 years.

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my friend said, when he was first getting saved, he would walk by a tv at his friends house, and it woud turn on to ctian tv on its own