#testosterone milestone

[bats-and-rot]

My one year anniversary on testosterone is coming up in two days (August 29th) but I have nobody to celebrate with and I'm really sad about that shit, it has huge amounts of importance to me but I don't have a single friend who can actually celebrate with me. I'm not sure what to do, any suggestions? I'm so bittersweet that I made it all the way here but there isn't a soul other than my own to share that with.

[bats-and-rot]

One year on Testosterone!!! I am so fucking proud of myself for getting here!! 52 times I have injected testosterone over this year of treatment, and after each shot my heart soars and it's like a sigh of relief. I am becoming more myself each day, and seeing myself feel less self conscious about my voice, growing a little facial hair, my arm and leg hair thickening up immensely, losing my curves and gaining about a dozen other little things I can look in the mirror without sadness or disgust, instead of "ugh I look so not me and I hate it", it's now "oh damn I better shave soon I look scraggly lol". I can say I am comfortable with my body and even love some parts of it now, that's a huge change from a year ago!! I actually enjoy talking now because I get a smidge of euphoria from hearing the deepness in my voice now and realizing I sound like ME. I feel so much more connected to myself than I ever have been in my life. I am so fucking proud of you, me.