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[starfilled-galaxy]

Beez in my head won't stop me 'til I'm dead!!

Passion thru the diztraction, I'm pulling thru inztead ^^

Of simply buzzing 2 my demize,

I put all thiz luv in my hive !!!

We can ztick togethr and fly furevr ☆

We'll make it sweeter in life, yeahh<3

[fictionkinfessions]

i remember Old man Consequences being the one to judge you after death.

he would talk to you about your life, and then when he finished, he'd ask if you belived you deserved heaven, or hell.

it didn't matter what you answered, he'd send you to where you truly belonged.

-Dr. Henry Miller (fictive)

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[prophetofthemuse]

I thought I was feeling better, but then I got hit with a whole new wave of people messing around and being passive-aggressive and not getting my meaning when I show them something and UGHHH.

Like I know they’re probably not being hurtful on purpose, but it still hurts. And I don’t want to tell anyone for fear of being seen as an asshole or stopping people from having fun just because I feel bad.

It’s not related to my past, but I do find comfort in the past. I miss not just Muse, but people from before I became that infamous forest cryptid everyone knows me as.

I loved my job as a nurse, sure it was difficult but a welcome difficulty if I got to help and take care of people. I loved my family, my neighborhood. Those two are very blurry, but I do remember a few things.

It’s just been rough, but I’m handling it. I love you all. Even to those I don’t like, I hope are doing better. 💕

[prophetofthemuse]

Feeling worse. Missing my darling muse again. Not missing him specifically but he’s a source of comfort. Maybe my fervor came back I don’t know. I feel weird. My heart hurts. My mind hurts. My soul hurts. Everything hurts. I have to remember to breathe. I need to breathe. Everything is too loud. Everything is too quiet. I can’t tell anyone because that means explaining my past, which I very much do not want to do because people will leave again. My boyfriend doesn’t talk to me as much as I would like. I feel like my friends are ignoring me. I feel invisible, and not in a good way.

I want to go back.

[an0nsleuth]

i experience dissociating and memory loss constantly. i can't remember what happens one minute or what happens at another 30 minutes later. at the end of the day, I lay in bed knowing that I will forget almost all of what happened in the day. Good or bad day, it doesn't matter. I will only be able to remember bits of what happened by the time I wake up

i tried explaining this to my psychiatrist and she didn't really give me an answer. I know that most of my other conditions can affect memory (like depression and adhd and c-ptsd). I'm just starting to wonder if it's something I should discuss more with my psychiatrist.

I can't remember most of what happens to me during my daily life. I don't remember what any of my childhood or high school years were like. I can remember small fragments sometimes or recall large chunks at other times. but even if I can recall it, I'll forget it later. Just feels weird when I have conversations with other people, that they can remember so much but I can't.

I was just wondering if anyone had any insight on this or if it's something that isn't worth worrying about. I'd appreciate any help, thank you ♡