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taking everyfiber opf my being not to talk about nine inch nails more

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-sighs-

ERSATZ..........................................

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surprise surprise found out Im fucking plural a few months ago so that was fun

it has been hell actually, because im realizing now that having 2 extra people living in my head with me who can sometimes take the reigns explains a -lot- of shit that I've done in the past, as well as the brain fog and indecisiveness

my brain is constantly giving me surprise after surprise and im actually fucking sick of it but there is nothing i can do except try to work with my alters and not piss them off (which i have already done like twice now as far as Im aware)

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I had to donate blood and for reasons I thought it would be funny and an overall interesting experience if I went in as a girl and used my ID with my old name on it (my gender marker on my ID has never been changed but my current name is pretty masculine so I didn't want them asking me questions) and the funniest part is my phlebotomist SOMEHOW "accidentally" said "he" to refer to me. Bro I SHAVED my face AND arms for this, I was committed to the bit!

Anyway that is the first time I have ever donated blood and I might go back to do it again just for funsies once my wait period is up. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be and felt like it didn't take that long, even though I threw up once the procedure was done (thanks body, you're a real piece of work you know that?). But hey, free Gatoraid and popcorn right after, AND I got to spend the rest of the day at my partner's place just relaxing with them.

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found a really nice sweater dress and might wear it to work one of these days. im still trying to convince myself its okay for me as a guy to wear this kind of thing in public but it makes me so nervous. at the same time, i have been seeing someone who im not sure if they're gnc or what but they have long hair, facial hair, and ive often seen them wearing what looks to be a long skirt and... heels? i swear i saw them wearing heels. either that or sandals, i really couldn't tell i was too far away. but they really rocked the look! so that kinda makes me feel a bit better about being gnc out in the open i guess????

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friend and I decided we are are officially a thing since Nov 24th. boygirlfriend real!!!!!! BOYGIRLFRIEND REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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the Whispers In The Walls quest really fucking one-two-punched me in the nuts emotionally

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I apparently grew an inch and a half in the past few years, which blows my mind. I thought I was done growing. I suspect this is because of being on T and I am delighted by that :)) Maybe I'll grow more in the next few years? Nah, probably not. I don't mind being a manlet, though, easier for Saph to pick me up 💙