sooo
I am eighteen now but
I was super excited for it
the only reason im not.
is because I had to cancel my own birthday party in real life due to financial costs
my mom helped me get the items I needed for my party but didn't want to it was unable to actually get my cake.
my birthday would've been pushed all the way back to the 15th or 16th when my birthday is today, the 13th.
all my other birthdays have also been awful, I've had things go bad on them,
eighteen failed birthdays in a row.
I still kind of wanna kill myself too
or should I suck it up be called spoiled because im never grateful for what does go right in my life.
I have decided that next year on my 19th birthday, the only way for everything to go exactly the way it's supposed to would be for me to fund my own birthday with my own money, and I think id actually prefer that.
id make as big of a deal of it as possible to make up for all eighteen years I spent not being able to celebrate it correctly.
unhappy birthday to me.
but I never would've changed my mind nor wanted to keep going to actually consider a nineteenth birthday next year
if it weren't for my friends.
so thank you. @wormie-the-worm @rapptadoes-stuff @rockingego @lugnutsnumberonefan @grvegirll @burntcoco @mylez-theantonymph everybody else thats apart of my friend group. even if you guys aren't in the same servers
and I also thank all the communities I've been apart of that gave me understanding and welcomed me in even when I felt like I didnt deserve it or thought I was alone.
happy birthday to me 🎂.