So I have character in a somewhat horrifying situation, I dunno
But their name is Liuyue Lutece and for reasons, they are two bodies/minds that regard themself as being one person and pretend in public to only have the one body/mind
IE, only one of their bodies/minds is in public at any given time, but they live and love and work and study together in private (when I say love, I don’t mean sexually/romantically each other; they have a spouse who knows/acknowledges who they are)
So they talk to themself out loud for completely non-symbolic reasons (a thing that is my best way of doing)
What is my point is that I want to be them right now and instead I’m me and after almost two hours of being my sounding board and discussion buddy someone has left me to do their own thing and I have immediately deflated and started drifting
There’s no point talking aloud or talking things out anymore, it’s just me and my sources and I have to give a shit about what they say and how they say it
Why? is my question, to my brain
Why is all I want to do explore tumblr and eat Coco Pops?
Also, why does is this cat so thirsty for affection, and why is it so sure it will get it from me?
I have so many why questions and my brain is like custard and life is terrible
