Decided to write in my journal today and it felt amazing :)
“It is terribly strange, isn’t it? How we all feel like we owe something. Whether that be to ourselves, or to others, or our families. And maybe we do, but we should start thinking for ourselves, your own self. You owe yourself that much, right? Because what do we have to lose? Nothing. We are young, smart, and adventurous, and we deserve to feel euphoria, we deserve to be loved, we deserve to feel FREE. I always sit and wonder, "why am I not happy?”, “why do I feel so low?”. Why does it always seem I cannot get myself to do things I love when I used to do them so, so simply. I’m all reality, I am able to do those things, whether it be drawing, singing, or even simply laying and listening to a record. But the answer as to why it seems so hard, is because society teaches us that living shouldn’t be that simple. They teach us we HAVE to get jobs we hate,(and your lucky if you get one you love),we must work our souls away until there is nothing left of us, then you may go where you want, even though you will not have the energy to do so. This is why so many people’s creativity and simplicity get destroyed. It is such a sad world, and I am so sorry we have to live like this. But on the brighter side, we can do things, simple things that make us glow with sparkles from within. Darling, the world is cruel but you are so immaculate. You make the birds sing on rainy days, you make hearts smile with just your presence. You matter. Don’t let an ugly world destroy the inner child you have. Instead, fight. Fight with all you have, make others see the beauty there is left in the world. It’s people like you who make the world a better place. Positivity will always overcome darkness, courage will ALWAYS out stand fear. So what are you waiting for?“