[lays back on the bed with my head hanging over the edge upside down]
My #grimoire-goals when I first started the Fancy Grimoire was to have a ~pretty~ and ~aesthetique~ book like in the movies. And it certainly has become that as I've gotten better at... whatever you call it. Scrapbooking? Art journaling? idk. But I've learned those skills from working on the Fancy Grimoire, and flipping through the pages shows real progression in my skills.
But NOW the #grimoire-goals are to have the widest possible range of spells in it. What I want is for someone to say "Hey, what's a good spell for [thing]?" and I'd flip to the page in my grimoire instead of searching it online. I'd have the decorated pages, the pretty aesthetic, but also the researched topic, maybe a premade spell, a few suggestions on customizing or making a new spell as needed.
[slides farther off the bed, head on floor]
See, in actually defining this goal, I realize that the problem with that is the same problem some of y'all have with fanfiction.
No, don't leave, stay with me here.
Y'know where there's a bunch of posts on this hellsite (affectionate) that are like "I don't want to write this fic, I want to already have written this fic"? Like that.
If my goal is to have everything already in my grimoire, then the goal is to have ALREADY DONE the research. If I can flip to a page in my book, it's because I've already done the work. And sure that sounds like a nice goal, but when I think about it in those terms, I do NOT want to ever reach a point where everything I know is already in the book. I don't want to stop learning and brainstorming and thinking. New problems means new witchery, new spells, new ideas, new techniques.
[kicks off the bed and flips onto the floor, facedown]
Anyway. I realized I don't have anything in my book about binding and I really need to get on that.