The Art of Dreaming of the Impossible Things
Life is a story of chasing our purpose, passion, and dreams. This is precisely why we can always live another day and endure the pain that life offers us every second. No matter what or where life brings us, we cannot easily give up without trying or fighting. Our dreams, our goals, our hopes - these are what make us go all the way and give the best that we have. We always believe that everything is possible in life and that at the end of the day, we will claim what we seek most. But what if there is only the impossible? What if we’re only left with outlandish things, choices, or dreams?
When I was but a young kid, I had no idea what was possible or what was impossible. All I ever cared about was playing, having fun, and crying whenever I was hurt by a small wound that I got from not always listening to the words of the elders. Life was pretty great to me back then. I was probably careless and self-centered. But alongside that character of mine were the dreams that stayed with me for quite a long time. I still remember sticking to that dream of becoming a nurse growing up. It went on for six or seven years, give and take. But the thing is - when the world starts to show you what real life is and how cruel it can be to you, your dreams as a kid will change, or worse, they could fade. But the worst part? Aside from your dreams, everything around you will also change. YOU, in particular, could change. Because truth be told, I did.
Becoming a nurse was the first impossible dream I’ve ever had. Because if I were to summarize my list of reasons, it would all come down to the fact that I have a weak stomach. Only in high school did I start to dream of becoming a writer someday. How and when did it begin? I don’t know. But I know I was genuinely inspired by the idea of writing stories, letters, poems, and more. I even remember writing stories back then, which somehow only reminds me now of how jologs I was before. Sometimes, along with writing my stories, I also dream of publishing them and inspiring the young generation of writers with me and my writing journey. More than this, I also dream of running a publishing house one day. And there, I see myself working with people who share my dream.
Now, what makes it impossible? Well, there are two things. First, it would be the fact that I lack experience. I never joined workshops, campus journalisms, or other related events that might have honed my skills and creativity. I write whenever I feel like writing or have ideas that push me to grab my pen and paper and start writing. The second thing that makes it impossible is that I still lack trust in myself, my capabilities, and what I have right now. Every time I try to start writing a story, I can't seem to finish it or make it halfway through the story.
I didn’t say anything about giving up on this one. Because this time, even though some things are still quite blurry, I know I still want to be that good writer who inspires people. And that, I hope, will come true.
Moving on, another dream included in the list is my dream of having a small apartment. And there, I’m going to live alone and independently. I want to do that someday. I want to try and see how things will go for me when I’m already all alone. I want to find out how I will handle and figure things out without considering asking for help as my first option. Owning an apartment, living alone, and being alone will help me the most. But don’t worry. It will eventually take a long time before I even buy my small, comfy house and live a better life.
And, of course, I also dream of going to beautiful places. I’ve always wanted to travel, see the world, ride a bus now and then, walk in the park, and sit on a bench while enjoying the day with hot coffee. I want to meet new people, talk to them, and have fun with them. I want to know how dancing on the street with other people feels, which I've only seen in movies. Thinking of doing these things makes me feel like a free, grown woman. And that’s absolutely how I want to live my life someday.
Some things are pretty impossible to achieve from where I stand right now and what I know about myself. And yes, maybe it’s because I’m still hesitant to dive into risks and take the fall. Perhaps I’m giving too many excuses instead of just allowing myself to accept the opportunities that come to me. But you see, this is why I’m writing this: this is the part where everyone should realize and learn some truth.
The truth is - nothing in this world is impossible. And if ever there is, none of us could tell what is possible and what is not. At least not until you’ve reached the end of the race. Nothing is certain at the moment because we still have so many things to fear, things to lose, and so many things to learn. But this doesn’t mean that it’s already impossible. We’re just currently trapped in our wall of reasons and excuses. And that’s what needs to be changed.
You see, dreaming of something in life is what keeps us alive. We may look at things differently or see every situation negatively, but these drive us to move forward and do something about our lives. Certain or uncertain, bad or good, possible or impossible, the thing is - as long as we’re not giving up, and as long as we’re on the track, nothing is over yet. Because the moment we start to dream of something, that’s when we begin making changes. That’s when we started to see the world in its authentic colors.
Right now, all I have are my dreams. And maybe I still have those thousands of reasons with me. But I’m not giving up because, as most people would often say and believe - it’s not over until it’s over.
Keep on dreaming and do what you know is right. As cliche as this could seem, you must never forget to follow your heart, especially when you sometimes feel lost. And someday, we’ll all know that everything is worth the while.
Truly,
AC San Pascual