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[poetdameron]

Benpoe + 41 (lets get some fluff)

41. Things you said you loved about me.

“Are you using cologne?”

Well. So much for being subtle.

“Uh? No?” Was Ben Solo’s answer and everyone at the meeting table looked back at Poe, like some kind of game.“I swear for the Force, you smell like cologne…” He leaned front, near Solo’s neck and the taller man frowned. “Uh… sorry.”

Smooth, Leia though as she shook her head, clearing her throat and making everyone in the war room remember why they were here in the first place. Just a little embarrassed but still curious, Poe gave her a small nod and apologized with his brown eyes. The general continued her little speech, Finn was laughing at the other side of the table and Rey had elbow him softly so he will stop, but when her father appeared to not find a stop to his own muffled giggles, she sighed and gave Poe an apologetic smile. Nah, he though, none of it; it was fine, he asked for it. I mean, who in the name of the Maker interrumpted a war council just to ask his ex-lover if he was wearing cologne? This pilot right here, Poe smiled.

It has been a small thing, something that remained him of the old days with his friend. Holding hands, doing pranks, talking shit, stealing ships and exchanging clothes before midnight, before going to bed and wishing each other’s good night with a quick kiss and a laugh. Good days, innocent days. He sighed, soon following another’s captains inform and Ben’s, Ren’s, who ever he is now’s, scent surrounded him once more. This was his damn fault, he shouldn’t had stood at his side, they hadn’t truly talked ever since he came back and spent a life time in observations and then in auto home arrest at the Organa Manor.

Poe moved his head to one side. Actually, they did talk when he was still at the medic bay, or at least, Poe had talked. Well, to be honest, he had yelled. He had yelled more than ten years of grief and wondering, what went wrong and what he could have done easily, and then, he had yelled some more about not only betrayal but disappointment and how much of an ass he was. The man had looked at him with those big, brown, deep eyes full of sorrow, solemn sorrow. He had just took all of Poe’s pain, accepted his hated words, and nodded in agreement. An apologize that Poe knew was honest, and then his silence.

It pissed him off even more, actually.

“You are wearing cologne…” He incisted in a murmur.

Ben looked at his side, to where Poe stand with crossed arms and a frown. The younger man blinked a couple of times before returning his attention to the council, looking at his cousin laughing now. This was not happening to him right now. His first interaction with Poe after the screaming at the medic bay, and it was about cologne. Cologne. Worst part was, he wasn’t wearing any! For real. And just the idea that he may smell bad was driving him crazy, it was too inapropiate and it’s not like if he needed more motives to be looked at with disapproval. Now this kriffing pilot, stanidng right to his side, crossing his arms and saying stupid things. How was he supposed to live like this?

“I’m not wearing any.” He answered in the same lowered tone, looking at him for a second.“Yes, you are.” Poe wanted to actually yell that, but mantained his voice even. “I know you do, you used to wear that one before.”

Once more, Ben blinked. What the kriff? He closed his eyes for seconds too long, listening at the voices around him like if under water, letting go of a deep sigh and looking back at Dameron again.

“That’s just my natural scent, commander.”“Sure thing, buddy.”

Are you kidd– No. Ben remained himself he shouldn’t let his temper get on his way, he remembered his psicological lessons and meditations with the other force users in the room back in the manor. This man was not going to make him lose it. Again.

“Which one is? Sefora or Hax?”“Maker, I’m not wearing cologne, commander.”

“Solo, Dameron.” Leia called, both man looked up in hurry. “Someting to offer?”

“Actually, General. While I agree our tactic is cleaner than the First Order’s and we may pass their radars, there is a problem.” Ben announced and Poe looked at him slowly. “They know that.“ 

Well. Kid knows his shit.

He kept talking  explaining Maker-knows-what with Maker-knows-who. The problem with the cologne is that it makes Poe stupid, or something like that. It was the same scent he always liked on his friend back when they were kids, and the scent that drive him crazy on his teen days, the scent he missed on his twenties when they exchanged more than kisses. And now, it had come back to haunt him, like a goddamn ghost story. And maybe it wasn’t the cologne what was upsetting him, maybe it was jut this tall, idiot of a man standing besides him.

“Why haven’t you talked to me?” Poe asked again in a murmur.Ben looked at him incredulously. “You told me not to.”“When?” He asked in a louder tone, thre were eyes on them again. “Sorry.”

They looked at the other at the same time, then back at front and listened. This could had been worse.

**

“What is the matter with you?” Finn asked Poe once they were dismissed, Rey and Ben still inside with their parents. Poe shook his head. “If you are going to talk to the guy, at least wait for a moment less crowed maybe? And you know, less public.”“I know. I KNOW.” He answered, “I just… his kriffing cologne, It was distracting me! He hadn’t changed in years, I was just taken aback by it.”Finn looked at him with a smirk, crossing his arms. “Cologne? His cologne was distracting you?” He said, Poe tried to correct himself but it was to late. “Maker, you are lost.”

Like summoned by their babbling, Ben appeared at the door behind Rey and Luke, eyes lowered to the ground a if asking permission to walk over it. Elbowing him, Finn smiled at Poe when the man looked at his side, “There is the cologne guy, poe”“Shut up, man!”

Rey giggled, Ben was looking right at Poe now and he stepped forward, better get over this match for once. So the older twins and Rey walked over, saying their goodbye to the taller man and taking Finn with them, who was only giggling with his own girlfriend. Kriff them, this was not going to end well anyway.

“Okay, so…”“You need to stop bothering me, we are not twelve anymore.” Ben said, too firm to be serious, if he was anything like before.“Excuse me, I am bothering you? You don’t talk to me for almost an entire year and then stand at my side wearing three gallons of cologne!”“I’m not wearing cologne!” He said, his cheeks were starting to turn red. “I have never use cologne in my life, it irritates my skin, moron!”“How’s that? No, you have been using the same damn intoxicating cologne since we were kids! I was sure yo were stealing it from your dad, is too strong!”“That’s my natural smell, you idiot!”

Silence.

“So, you are telling me that the uncalled blast from the past came from your natural smell?” Poe sounded too incredulous to be true, Ben only sighed. “Okay….”“What? I thought you liked it.”“Come again?”Ben looked at him for almost an entire minute, frown too deep in his face. “You once told me you loved it.”“Uh…” Maybe that was why it was bothering him so much, isn’t it? He stopped for a second or two before sighing. “Yeah, well. Things change, I guess.”“Yeah, I can see that.”

As the silence grow between them, Ben decided it was time to disappear, he quickly nodded as a good bye and walked fast towards the path his family has took. Poe looked at his great escape, his brain sending him big, red, signals that it was time to go in the other direction too, but he started to pout and kick his feet in the ground, this asshole was going to drive him crazy.

“Hey!” Poe took his arm and tangled it with his, walking with the taller man. “Have lunch with me, Solo.”“What?“Have. Lunch. With. Me.” He looked up, then smiled a little. “Come on.”

**

[poetdameron]

DRUNK POE GETTING A SERENATA TO BEN IN THE MIDDLE OF NEW YORK CITY: "SOMOS NOVIOOOOOOOOOS PUES LOS DOS SENTIMOS MUCHO AMOR PROFUUUUUUUUUNDOOOOOOOOOOO" A LA LUIS MIGUEL

AHAHAHAHA, IM GOING TO DIE.

So Poe gets out for some drinks with his friends and Ben is okay with that, he stays home, does some work and watches trashy tv until is time to sleep. Thank god he gets some rest, because in the middle of the night, out of nowhere (well, the bar), Poe and his also drunk as fuck friends get to his apartment building and, giggling and with the worst voice ever, start singing god knows what. Some song in english, something everyone knows but is imposible to follow with the laugh and the drunken singing. Ben ignores it, he can’t recognize Poe’s tone at first with all the extra sound, until Poe decides to get a little Extra™ and starts singing to the top of his lungs in spanish.

Ben sits right away on bed, eyes wide open, hands grabbing to the bedsheets in awe. That’s his boyfriend’s voice, that’s his drunk boyfriend singing. And Poe usually sing like an angel, but right now he sounds like if his lungs are bout to explode and when his friends starts yelling for him to come out, he just gets red, red red. Embarrassment? Anger? Maybe al of it. But also, something nice starts blowing on his mind and heart, his chest does this cacophony, all too happy, and when he finally looks from the window and sees a jumping Poe singing and smiling for him, he can’t help but laugh… and record the thing, he is not letting Poe live this one on.

[poetdameron]

Do you have any benpoe headcanons post movies?

I think everything I headcanon with them being happy and together are post movies, but let me think of some more <3

Ben can’t leave the planet he lives in with his mother, he is living under some kind of house-arrest that will be over in five years. For a year and a half, Poe doesn’t truly see him or talk to him. He can’t bring himself to do it, there is so much unspoken between them, he doesnt’ know how to approach it and he knows he will end up screaming at his face if he starts the conversation.

Until finally, they run into each other and they had have enough of the silence. It all starts like a very polite conversation, but anger grows and fear starts showing between lines and then, everything just explodes into a horrible fight in which maybe they say way too much.

Months later, on Leia’s birthday, they talked again and decided to stop ignoring each other. Especially since Ben will be working at base too with Leia, so it’s better for everyone if they can tolerate each other. Basically, is a start over.

Thanks to BB-8 being so curious about Ben always knitting on his breaks, the droid wins some kind of hat Ben did and it makes Poe go talk to him again to say ‘thank you’, and they start bonding from there again.

First date was a complete disaster, since is not easy to go out when you can’t be gone too far away from base and whenever you go, you will probably find some of your co-workers. So everyone interrupts them or something, everyone wants to talk to Poe and he is sure as hell Ben will never want to go out with him ever again, but at the end of the night, Ben kisses him and asks if he can chose where to go next time.

After that, things are easier. Especially having Finn and Rey near them, and having double dates with them. Slowly, their lives together become a bunch of fluff. Until they start sleeping together.

See, the sex is not problem. Is good, is them, and they feel safe with each other. The problem is the actual sleeping. None of them does it well. One is always waking up in the middle of the night without fourter explanations, the sleep is gone. Ben suffers from lots of nightmares, while Poe's own demons come as long sleepless night in front of the space tv, watching space telenovelas. And they don't know what to do with the other at first.

One day, Poe sits in front of Ben tells him they need to talk about their shit because there is no way he is losing him for something so stupid as "not talking". Ben is not good with words, but thankfully Poe has always been good at reading him. Yet, Poe has always bottleup his feelings and problems, not talking is his own way to deal with shit but he also knows he has to open up a little. The discover that Poe is even more closed than Ben amazes the force user, and it also inspire him to open up first so Poe can feel comfortable enough to do something about himself.

None of them does well vulnerable, and both of them are competitive assholes, not to mention they have their own kind of pride. So their fights are bad, real bad. Thankfully, these don't happen a lot, but sometimes one will mantain something from the other for a long time, and when it explotes, they can say things out of the emotion of the moment that then they will regret for days and weeks and months, until they finally talk about it.

After the first year together, things get better and they can understand the other almost perfectly. Is easier to talk and to stay away from the other when they need some air, is easier to be together and it all feels right, finally.

Poe starts saving for a house after the year mark, he knows Ben is the one he wants to spend the rest of his life with and the only one who knows his plans is BB-8. Ben will be able to stop living with his mother in two years by that time, so he has good time to find a good place and to get the money for it. By accident, Ben finds out and Poe is sure he is going to freak out, but it actually just moves him all. He starts helping with the search and saving after a talk.

[poetdameron]

darkpilot and #18 for the third set :)

The way you say ‘I ove you’: 18. From very far away

There has always been something about Bens voice, Poe recognized after sighing for the fourth time that night as teir call has become a letany of ‘I miss you’s and ‘I wish you were here’s. Honestly this wasn’t the way he thought his first real relationship, first real romantic relationship, would go. What with him going t the Flying Academy of the Republic, and Ben training to be a goddamn Jedi Knight, having a long distance relationship wasn’t easy at all. Maker, if sometimes Poe wanted to fly right into Ben’s arms every time in a while. And doing holocalls wasn’t enough. Most time, he was happy to heard him and see him through the holo, but most times, like today, it wasn’t– It wasn’t enough.

“When are you having vacations?” Poe asked with some kind of wonder, hope and so much more on his voice.Ben moved his head to one side, smilling just a little. “You know I don’t have those…”“Damn, Ben.” He murmured, sighing again. “I hate this, you should be able to go see your folks. And me.”“Yeah, well…” The younger teen started, scratching the back of his neck in an uncomfortable state. “Tell that to my uncle, Poe. Our training is very closed and secretly. If he left us go, we could lost the line of working.”“That’s bullshit..” He said again. He was being a kid, he knew. But he couldn’t help it. “Anyway,” Ben sighed when he heard him but smiled again, “you know what?”

Ben’s eyes had gone soft again, which meant happy times and better days. Poe smiled up at him and reminded himself why he was with this skinny guy anyway. He was just– So fucking perfect. From his hair to his voice, his anxious way of babbling while nervous or concerned, how he smelled, his smile in the morning and the grumpy way he behaved with lack of sleep. Ben Solo was, by all means, all those daydreams of love and princes on his holobooks, and his grandfather’s stories. 

The conversation went on after that, it was late already and both of them needed to be up early, yet none could get their ass to stop this.But like many times befre, Ben put the good example. 

“Poe, we have to sleep. For at least half an hour.”“You know, we are supposed to sleep for a lest eight hours. Daily.”“Yeah, well…” Ben giggled, “with you, that’s imposible.”“What does that meant, Solo?”“Nothing, nothing…” He was kriffing with him, Poe knew. So he have him a little smirk. “Let’s get some sleep, beloved.”After a few silent seconds, Poe nodded. “Yeah, I could use some hours of resting…”“Then, goodnight, my love. I’ll call you later.”The idea made Poe smile brighter and he nodded. “Sleep well, babe.”

Suddenly, Poe looked into Ben’s eyes and the younger boy felt shy. Poe had this powerful stare, like if he could resolve Ben as if he was some kind of puzzle. It made him feel both, admired and too observed. Yet, he could never tell Poe to stop doing it; a bigger part of him liked the sensation and to be the only one looked this way by Poe Dameron. His boyfriend smiled softly and sweetly at him.

“I love you”, he let go with a sigh and Ben’s heart stopped in his tracks.

This was not the first time the older boy told him this, but it always felt as good. His smile was shy now, and Ben imitated it, nodding and appreciating the sincerity of those words, the heavy meaning of it, the lovely taste of all those words. Following his heart, he looked up and smiled right into Poe’s bright own smile.

“I love you, too.”

Of course he did. It was imposible not to. Poe giggled and wished him goodnight. There were better days to come for them, he just knew.

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All my favorite fanfictions: The Emperor and his Knight by Davechicken

When Ben Organa-Solo fled the Jedi and his family, Poe Dameron followed to keep him safe. They rose through the ranks together, until they really were safe.

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If Ben and Poe had a son/daughter, what his/her name would be? How would that kid be?

I have many thoughts about this.

I’m not sure they would actually have kids. For a start, Ben needs to cope and too heal enough to be able to be a father. As for Poe, while I see him liking children, I don’t actually see him actually thinking of becoming a father. He has live with war in his life for a long time, since he was a kid himself actually, and he may remember how lonely it was to grow up without his parents until they came back when his mother decided to follow Luke’s advice of going home. Besides, he knows with his life style, he may be gone one day and he can’t bring himself to think of leaving his own kid and Ben alone if that happens, he can’t. Same for Ben, but in a way I don’t think he would actually consider kids even.

But in the other hand, I do like the idea of them being parents. And I feel that they will do a good job, having their own mistakes in the path, but eventually realizing it and working on it, and well… names. That’s complicated. I know in canon the Skywalkers kind of like repeating names, as seen in the EU/Legends and in the new canon too, so in a way I’m sure part of Ben will want his son to be called Anakin, but also part of him may want to reject that since he idolized the part of his grandfather that wasn’t him at the end, so he also knows the kind of looks his son would get even from his own family, so maybe not. I have a friend who chose the name Bail, Leia’s adoptive father, which I think may be a good option.

And as for a girl, Shara is the name that comes to my mind every time I think about the possibility of them having a baby girl. Other name that pops out is Shmi, since Ben appreciates the Skywalkers so much, but my personal favorite, since I think he won’t dare give his son his father’s name if they adopt/had twins, is Jaina, Han’s mother’s name. Plus, Jaina Dameron sounds cool as hell. So, first option would forever be Shara, then Jaina.

[poetdameron]

Darkpilot headcanon swap

First, thanks to the amazing @sithofren for this, you are the best my dear <3 And thank you to everyone who is being part of this amazing idea. Reading your headcanons has make me really happy, and as for me, I have talk about this before...

This is my first Ben/Poe post ever: (x)

Headcanon that when Ben Solo was born, Shara and Kes went to see Leia and Han. Poe met Ben when he was just a baby, they met again when Han and Leia went to see the Damerons to Yavin 4, where Ben was amazed by the Force Sensitive Tree, Shara planted in their home. Years later, Poe is part of the rebellion like his parents, everyone knows he is a great pilot but also, Ben Solo knows he is a good guy and likes to tease him when he is not following Uncle Master Luke. Poe hears about what happened to Luke’s apprentices and tries not to think about the pain Ben’s parents are feeling, and tries to not think much about the kid running around the Tree in his home. Then, they met again and they don’t know each other at all. It has nothing to do with appearance.

And then there is in which Poe has a crush: Some of you may remember these. The idea is for them to first met each other thanks to their parents friendship, when they were kids. Poe feels attracted to Ben’s smile, he thinks is cute and they become friends soon. Later, older and not so inocent anymore, he will find out he is attracted that way to his friend. And then all the angst. 

There is also that one time I make Snoke into the boogeyman: And I think by now is obvious what is my favorite headcanon, them knowing each other as kids and being friends with a crush on each other, being the other’s first love and first kiss and first everything. This one in prticular, I think, is very cute. Then, I did this one post too. From it:

- They didn’t like each other right away, Shara and Leia introduced them and next thing they knew, they were fucking fighting each other in the ground like puppies and both of them were like >:l - They bonded over the most stupid thing ever: “look, Solo! i found a rad rock!” “that’s a cool rock!”, their mothers have never been so happy for a rock in their homes. Poe still keeps the fucking rock, because he is sentimental as shit and at least, he wants to remember Ben at his best.

[poetdameron]

I'M SCREAMING FOR THAT MINI FANFIC! I want to know more about this verse tho, what happened? why Poe and Ben haven't seen each other in so many years? Why is Poe living with asshole Hux with his asshole cat? WHERE IS FINN? AND REY? WHAT IS IT???

We are talking about this and then this.

I actually dind’t thought about any of that until the other night while thinking “hey, these two nothings are actually kind of good and people seems to like it”, so here we go (is still in the thoughs, so I may change things when I write the whole thing):

As kids, they were neighboors and good friends, they grow up looking at the other like the most cool person in the world and as teenagers, they had feelings for the other. Poe was sure as hell they will end up dating, until Ben and his family move out. Yet, he remembers Ben as the best of his past and Ben remembers him just like that, too. For years, they keep contact and even once, Ben went to see him for a week when Leia had things to do in the city. The crush they had was strong, and they even kissed a few times and so but then, they grow up and everyone took their way. 

For a long time, Ben didn’t knew what was it he wanted for himself. He had problems, strong problems and had to deal with mental illness. After a while, and therapy, he found himself loving to cook and well, cheff will be. He is, and he prefers bakery. He has a very hipster coffee his mother and father helped him put, and he has been reuniting the money to pay them, even when they have told him no, it was a gift but he is too proud to accept it, so they will have to take the money. He doesn’t want his illness to take the best of him and became an obstacle on his career, so he tries his best to keep with his schelude for when he needs to go to therapy, when he has to take meds, and even tries to stress bake the less. He has been doing better to the point Rey, his cousin who lives with him, thinks he could handle himself alone if she indeeds moves in with her boyfriend, Finn. They are both his biggest support, since only them believed in him when he started to plan his coffee shop; this support made Han and Leia get close to him, and help him out too. It was nice. But still, he wants to pay them.

Poe went to the Air Forces, even went to Top Gun and lived the dream for a while. Until a crash destroyed his life. He is depressed by the time he is sent home, he doesn’t know what he wants to do with his life and he ends up living with Hux, who was also a militar and is in a similar situation as him, they go together to the veterans program, where Rey is the host and Poe sees his adoptive little brother, Finn, who gives him a job at the bar he has with his friend Slip, he is dating Rey and is Poe’s major inspiration since he was in a similar place like Poe’s just two yers ago before Poe went home, too: had an accident that costed him his time out the country, didn’t know what the fuck with his life, touched bottom and then found out there is no shame in asking for help. He started going to the sessions by himself, then reunited with Slip and now he has a happy life, still working in a few things, but he is doing fine. And Poe wants to be fine, too.

So by the time they see each other, is in an accidental good moment of their lives: Ben got the money for his parents at least, while Poe, still depressed and so, decided he wanted to be fine. That afternoon, talking with Hux, he told the ginger man he wanted the gods to send him a signal that he was going to be fine soon, and then, he found Ben. After so many years and after thinking he will not see him again, he found Ben grabbing milk at one am in Walmart. That’s his sing. And they start seeing each other like before, taking in the other’s life and listening to the dark parts of it, understanding it and when they realize they have the same guardian angels (Rey and Finn), things could not be more perfect.

Until they aren’t. Until Ben has a relapse and destroys his entire apartment because he can’t remember where he put his parent’s money. Poe panics because he doesn’t know what is going on, he doesn’t know how to help Ben, and Rey doesn’t answer her phone, Finn either, and Ben doesn’t want him to call his parents or someone else, and he is acting so strange to Poe, like if he was another person. He is furious and the next second he is crying like a little kid because he doesn’t want to be sick, and then he is panicking about the money again and he starts saying he doesn’t want to go back there, that he has to find the money and put together the whole place or he will have to go back, and Poe knows there is something they are not telling him and that maybe Ben moving out wasn’t exactly that his parents went to work to another place.

But don’t worry, this has a happy ending anyway c: