I look in people's window x Nikova Banks
I had died the tiniest death I spied the catch in your breath Out, out, out, out, out, out North bound I got carried away As you boarded your train South, south, south, south, south, south A feather taken by the wind blowing I'm afflicted by the not knowing so
Nik first met Kai when she was 17 and Kai was a senior in HS. Their paths were never meant to cross. Logically they would never work out. A girl who had been neglected her whole life with serious abandonment issues who has no future in front of her and is completely dependent on her brother who has no real means of taking proper care of a teenager and a rich guy who is expected to achieve great things and carry forward the hard worked legacy his father built. Kai would go off to college while Nik would wait for her brother to finish his studies so he could get her out of the house where no one cared for them. this didn't stop either of them from exploring their chemistry and they definitely wanted more from each other. But their problems and worries were worlds away.
I look in people's windows Transfixed by rose golden glows They have their friends over to drink nice wine I look in people's windows In case you're at their table What if your eyes looked up and met mine One more time
Nik was never allowed to have any friends other than the bodyguards Damon hired for her. Being a teenager with a social life was something she could only dream about. It was never within her reach. Damon never allowed her to be a part of any parties or functions. She was always an outsider (even in her own 'home') and only lived vicariously. Then her early twenties were used up surviving in Gabriel's household and earning his 'respect' and then finding/ protecting Damon from his friends. She never got the chance to worry about assignments and exams. Her problems were worlds away from what a normal teenager should experience. And the canon is as much as she had her hands full she still thought about Kai and him alone while he was around living his own life. He was the only 'good guy' she knew and she held onto him as tight as possible even though they might never meet again.
You had stopped and tilted your head I still ponder what it meant now, now Now, now, now, now I tried searching faces on streets What are the chances you'd be downtown Downtown, downtown Does it feel alright to not know me? I'm addicted to the 'if only'
I think this one would make more sense from Kai's pov. Nik understood him in a way no one had ever did before and that was important for Kai. He hardly spent a day with her and he knew that type of connection with attraction was rare. He searches for traces of her in every person he meets. And he spends a lot of time wondering about his cold, rude girl and what they could have been.
This is just my haphazardly put-together analysis so don't mind me. Thoughts are welcome.
