It's frustrating to see people frame explicit discrimination against trans women as an issue that affects all trans people because other types of trans people are tangentially affected.
I understand their intent and wanting to talk about + share their experiences but I do think things that are explicitly targeted at trans women should be discussed primarily in the context of transmisogyny.
I'm sorry if this seems intrusive, but I'm really curious.🙏
Hello! It would be very interesting to know what inspired you when creating the song "Victimized". Or how you came up with it, what (what feelings, memories, experiences) did you put/create in the song?Maybe there are characters/people that are associated with this song?
Thank you🩷
omgg no ur okay!! rutbawierbt this is going to be long gomen 🙏 I think its important to share these experiences
for the sound i was listening to d3r and can of bliss a lot at the time 😭
TW for abuse ment, SA/harassment
FOR CONTEXT IM A LESBIAN
I kept having dreams about one of my abusers breaking into my room and staring at me in my bed among like other dreams of him and it made me realize i was dealing with a similar situation all over again. I had a DIFFERENT person who was se/xually harassing me and getting off on crossing my boundaries and watching me panic and freeze up/not knowing what to do (which now that im writing this down i realize thats literally what was happening in my dream).
I couldn't understand why i kept letting him take advantage of me and then walk away from the situation and be like?? why did i do that? why do i keep giving in to him when i feel DISGUSTING afterwards?? I feel so uncomfortable every time but i never stop him. and then i realized i WAS trying to stop him but he would persisted anyways, told me it was fine, told me it was normal, told me im freaking out over nothing, and i just didnt even know how to combat someone stomping over my boundaries so effortlessly? and id totally shut down and freeze and he'd look at me in this way, his eyes looked like they were devouring my fear. and this definitely wasn't the first time someone had done this to me, it was just the first time it clicked in my head what was happening.
Through out all of it I was so frantic and I felt this intense feeling of dread all the time, but he kept telling me it wasnt a big deal, i was so confused 😭
so i suppose the song is about subconsciously knowing someones hurting u but not quite getting to the point where you KNOW it yet? and u just dont understand why u keep ending up with people like this over and over.
It was bc i had no self worth and severe abandonment issues! and well people like that love people like me (at the time, im better now lol) bc we're easy to lovebomb, gaslight, and manipulate and we'll do anything to be loved (especially bc i was manic the entire time)
so also while im talking about this omg i wish people would stop being like "mentally ill girls are my type" or "im into girls with bpd" bc to me i hear it in his voice, and all my other abusers voices. like they like girls like that BC we'd do anything to be loved and these types of people feed of the desperation we have to find someone after time and time of being abused so severely we develop PERSONALITY DISORDERS, who will care for us in a genuine way. they want to take advantage of us :( (i get comments like this and they definitely were in my mind while i was writing this song)
Aradia: Goes to the Haunted Mansion. Can't even get on the ride because too many people are wanting to have their picture taken with her because they think she's part of the Mansion. Tavros: Rides It's a Small World for fun. The person in charge of the ride forgets to help him get off and he gets stuck riding it 27 more times. Sollux: Doesn't even leave the room. Orders the continental breakfast and plays on his husktop the whole time. Karkat: Doesn't even make it through security because of his excessive swearing and threatening. Ends up going to Disney Jail for the day. Nepeta: Buys all the cat plushies, then rides the teacups, the carousel, and Dumbo with Equiss. Kanaya: Goes to Club 33, enjoys the evening with Rose. Terezi: Finds the Stitch's Great Escape attraction. Believes that Stitch really has escaped and searches for him all day. (Much to the dismay of several disturbed guests.) Vriska: Rides the Pirates of the Caribbean. Decides the attraction would be way more fun if she was in it, then runs off with the fake money. Equiss : Rides the carousel all day. Save for when Nepeta wants him to ride with her. (He likes to ride Buttercup the horse, okay?) ️Gamzee: Falls asleep on Monorail over. Ends up in Animal Kingdom and chills with the wildlife. Eridan: Gets dating tips from Gaston. Feferi: Finds the Little Mermaid area, and searches for Nemo all afternoon in the water.
