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if you don't hear from me ever again it will be because my workplace failed to secure maintenance for a sunday night that has forty fucking check ins and I am probably in jail for murdering someone

#the cons for this job are rapidly multiplying #and I don't know how much longer I can last #I am terrified of change and going somewhere else but #theirwolf rambles

if y'all notice me active on this site after 4pm pls feel free to message me and ask me why i'm not writing

#theirwolf rambles #doing my inside walking since it';s raining (yay! pray it storms)#then it's shower time and snack plate and WRITING #I am WRITING today dammit

still sick but I am free from work for two months and today I finally had the energy to fix hot tea and also ramen. I've had both, including 80% of the broth, am settled with a soda and some water, a box of tissues, my gothic writing playlist going, and it is time to start 2026 properly. *cracks knuckles*

#and by properly I do mean working on one of my nosferatu wips #Jess writes fic #theirwolf rambles

everything is terrifying on a personal and national and global scale but dammit, I am trying to cling tightly to the little shreds of optimism and hope I have left in me

I am trying to get my shit together. I am trying to keep going and pick myself back up and not get discouraged and derailed to the point of giving up on what progress I have, miraculously, made. and it is so damn hard, but what's the alternative?

as small as it might seem, I have made progress and I have started some healthier habits and found little slivers of happiness and joy and as hard and exhausting as it is to keep working so hard for them, losing them will hurt even more.

it shouldn't be this hard. it shouldn't be this exhausting. it shouldn't be this painful, but this is all I've got

#theirwolf rambles #in a weird headspace today #there's some hope but my anxiety is also high #everything feels very fragile #but I am trying to remind myself to keep pushing

I fear I am yet again stricken with plague :(

#theirwolf rambles #I go back to work in a little over a week #why must I suffer this way?#should tell my manager it is a black omen to return to work in such poor health #I should remain laid off and well rest myself

my CT scan is tomorrow which is good cause I need answers but I am terrified of what those answers might be.

#thank goodness it's early in the day #(by my standards)#theirwolf rambles #health stuff

the past few weeks have been extremely stressful - even tho my health issues have stabilized somewhat (but remain a mystery), my parents were incredibly close to becoming homeless and I felt like I was very close to something really bad happening at work. but these have now worked out and stabilized as well, so. we'll see how summer goes. but mentally I am in a really weird place, and it has definitely impacted me creatively, unfortunately.

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my brain: something is wrong call the doctor

doc: hhm yeah just keep doing what you're doing

my brain: okay great so this is normal great!

my brain, hours later: ...something is wrong

#theirwolf rambles #health stuff #i feel like I didn't explain it well or something idk or maybe I am being too impatient #days can be good but then nights happen #and it fucking sucks because nights are my time

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