“Do you hate me?” // @thelastbertinelli
She found him on a rooftop. Dick wasn’t sure if she’d been looking for him or not but, if she had, he probably hadn’t been hard to find. It was an unspoken rule for both Nightwing and Dick Grayson, the kind of thing anyone who knew him knew well. If you wanted to find him, just look up. He’d always gravitated towards heights, always felt most at ease with the wind ripping through his hair and the world miniaturized beneath him.
He heard her before he saw her, because they’d all learned how to move silently by necessity but they’d all learned how to listen for one another, too. Gotham vigilantes, especially those associated with the Bat, learned the same lessons. Dick kicked a foot where it hung off the ledge of the roof, contemplating taking a dive just to get away from the conversation. A dramatic reaction, perhaps, but no one had ever accused him of being anything but.
For a moment, he didn’t reply. He let the question settle in his mind for a moment, let himself consider it. Normally, the answer would have been fast, would have come without hesitation because even if no wasn’t the truth, he would have said it to spare her feelings. That was what Dick did. With her, with his siblings, with everyone. He was the peacekeeper, the one who told everyone what they needed to hear, the one who took the hit so that other people wouldn’t have to. But it ached, after a while, to take every hit. It hurt to bend over backwards to catch bullets for everyone else when you weren’t sure they’d do the same for you.
Finally, he sighed and shrugged a shoulder, not looking away from where his gaze was fixed on the city’s skyline. “I hate what you’re doing,” he replied. “I hate how you’re acting. I hate that you’re working with the people who made me an orphan. I hate that you’re pretending I have no reason to be upset by any of it. I hate that you keep... discounting what I’m feeling because it’s inconvenient to you. I hate that you’ve either actually become this person or you don’t trust me enough to tell me what’s actually going on. I hate that you’re treating me like an obstacle instead of a friend, after everything we’ve been through.” He paused for a moment, drumming his fingers against the bricks. “I don’t know if I hate you,” he admitted, “but I hate this.”