Daily Reflection
My goodness, I feel so bad. I feel like I am dragging my body from room to room. I am held down by the weight that I put on my own body. I Feel terrible.
I am so tired all the time. I am insatiable. There is nothing that I do that completely satisfies me. No amount of food, kisses, cuddles, naps, or nicotine.
I am done with feeling this way.
I have to fix this for myself.
Generally, I find something that can help and I self destruct. I just stop and give up. I also feel like my community needs to support me to make a breakthrough, most likely, so I don’t feel like I have achieved anything so I don’t feel like I earned any. So I don’t feel love for myself. I am so mean and bitter in my heart because of how unsatisfied and unfulfilled in my life. I am more mean to myself than other people. It is ridiculous. I feel like I have to hate myself.
I feel like the people closest to me feel like I am insincere. wasting time, wasting money, and most importantly wasting my life.
I need to have a balanced lifestyle and maintain it. The choice is my own.