A week had passed since zayn and i were over. since then..my life had been boring, nothing new happening , nothing interesting , routine killed me. i changed to a miserable person..i do nothing but cry and sleep all the time..i even barely ate, zayn was my everything and now he is gone..it hurt me a lot to see him everyday and not be able to run in his arms and get his hugs and kisses, it hurt me to see that - unlike me- he seemed happy,he acted like i didn't exist, it looked like he didn't care about the break-up, it seemed that it didn't hurt him as much as it hurt me..and that got me even more depressed. i see him everyday and my heart is just like *GO! GO NOW AND TALK TO HIM AND FIX IT! D O IT!* but my mind is just like *NO! HE DUMPED YOU AND HE SHOULD COME!*.
It was time now for English class, the class where i have to sit next to zayn in. i walked in and sat in my seat and zayn walked right after me and sat at his desk. He didn’t even glance at me once. i cleared my throat so maybe he could notice me .. Still nothing.
“Excuse me” i heard his voice say, he made my heart beat faster and faster..i looked at him with hope and said “yes?” but my hope faded when i realized he wasn't even talking to me.. i felt like crying. The class passed by slowly and i couldn’t wait to run out of the class room.
After lunch, i was walking to my locker and my heart was ripped out of my chest to the scene of zayn snogging another girl at his locker. i couldn't take it anymore..my tears fell like water falls..i still didn't want zayn to see me broken while he is all happy without me..so i ran to the bathroom, locked myself inside a stall, and started crying like i’ve never cried before.
“How could he do this to me? he was my world and now i see i was absolutely nothing to him! why do i always get put in these situations?” by these thoughts i started crying even harder..feeling sorry for myself and what zay had done to me.
i spent the rest of the day at the bathroom crying my heart out till i heard the bell ring..school was over and it was time for me to leave,i wiped my tears away and ran home as fast as i could. That night, i got a call from Abbie.
“Hey (Y/N)”.
“Hey”.
“Where have you been all day today? I didn’t see you except in math”.
“It’s nothing, I just didn’t feel like seeing anyone today”.
“Aha.. So, any news about you and Zayn? Did he talk to you or call you today?”. “Nope.. It’s been the way it is since .. that night ..” i said, my voice shaking.
“Okay.. What’s wrong?” she asked me..she didn't believe that everything was ok..cause that isn't even the truth..nothing was absolutely okay.
her question brought memories of zayn and the way we started , all that we've been through together, all the struggling we passed..and yet.. the way we ended. i couldn't hold my tears and i cried through the phone..abbie repeated her question several times till i was able to tell her about everything..and about what i saw today.
“What the hell? He is such a jerk ! You deserve better trust me”.
" I DON'T WANT BETTER I JUST WANT ZAYN. and in my opinion there's no one in the world better than him."..abbie sat silent for a while after me screaming in her face. but i thought about what i said and about what abbie said.. and she was right.. if he was the best for me he wouldn't have left. i thought again several times and i finally took my decision.
“You know what?” i said.
“What?”.
“I don’t need him any more.. I’m gonna go back home, reconnect with my old friends, and I will forget him .. I am never coming back here again !”.
“That’s right.. You should forget him, but I hope you’re not serious about never coming back” she said.
“Why?”.
“I mean, I’m gonna need you to visit every once in a while .. Please?”.
“I’ll do my best, Abbs.. I have to go now ok? I’ll see you tomorrow at school” i said, and hung up.
i was determined..i knew that if i ever leave the UK i won't get back again..i didn't want to be reminded of zayn but i still wanted to live here...all i could do now is wish for the best.
2 WEEKS LATER :
It was the day i was finally leaving. i had packed all my stuff the night before, and my dad was driving us to the airport.
Abbie, Jessica and Harry told me they’d meet me there so we could say our final goodbyes.
As i arrived,my phone rang, It was Jessica. She told me where they were waiting, and i went to them. Harry waved at me as you approached them.
“So this is it?” Abbie said, with a little tear in her eye.
“I guess so..” i said, sighing.
“Gosh, I can’t believe your leaving already!” Jessica said, hugging me.
Abbie started crying and hugged me too. the group hug lasted for what seemed like forever..but harry broke it.
“Aren’t you gonna make a little space for me in this hug?”.
“Naah” i said jokingly.
“Look at you girls crying and stuff” he said, sarcastically. i punched his arm.
“Come here” i said, spreading my arms for him to hug me...then i looked at jessica and added “Of course, if it’s okay with you”.
“Go ahead” she said, smiling.
Harry hugged me, then my phone started to vibrate in my pocket. It was my mom. She was calling to tell me that i had to leave.
“Well.. I guess this is really it guys” i said and stared at them for a while..then i gave them a final hug and waved at them and walked to my parents.
as i walked..i fetched the airport so well and...There was no sign of Zayn.
i couldn’t believe he didn’t even come to say one last goodbye. i got on my plane, and it took off .. with a few tears in my eyes knowing i will never see this amazing place again.
Zayn’s P.O.V :
My alarm clock went on one last time before I turned it off. It was 9:30 in the morning and i realized I was gonna be late for (Y/N)'s plane.
“Shit!” I said jumping out of the bed. I put random clothes and ran outside to my car..i tried my best to get to the airport before the only love of my life left..i knew i was not over her..and i knew i never will be..
I went full speed with my car, till I got stuck in traffic.
“Great! THAT'S WHAT'S MISSING!” i started screaming and yelling at everyone to get out of my freaking way.. i knew i was already late so i had to be there as soon as possible..who knows? maybe something happened and her flight was delayed.
I arrived at the airport and asked about the flight to Egypt, and they said it had already taken off 10 minutes ago. I couldn’t believe that was the end "how did we end up this way? JUST HOW? ". my eyes filled with tears by the though of not seeing (Y/N) ever again in my whole life. I had been a jerk to her and I regret everything that I said...but.. Regret wasn’t going to bring her back though .. I realized- i realized that i lost- lost her... Forever.
thoughts guys ?
