LONG POST AHEAD: I'm going to be honest. I'm not doing particularly well, mentally. I constantly feel lonely, I find myself moping around the house a lot and I find myself wondering if I'll ever find work and feel useful to society once more or achieve the goals I want. All this is beginning to take it's toll on my family. In just the last week, I've written some quite deep notes in my notebook (I'm a notebook/journal keeper), which some friends are lucky to have seen and I've even cried myself to sleep. I recently had a lovely, if not brief, DM convo with Laurence from @wearekidjupiter (formally Laure) about that topic and he wrote some supportive things :) This morning, it took until 11:45 to roll out of bed and more effort to take a shower. I thought I'd take a walk in the park near my house because it's so peaceful and I wanted to take advantage of this weather being signifcantly cooler and being able to wear more clothing and not having to worry about outfits I'm not going to swelter in. I love the Autumn season. This picture was taken just as #JohnDeacon's bassline in @officialqueenmusic #TheMiracle began. This is currently my favourite Queen song because it's just so cheerful. It's one of the few things that put me in a good mood. It's also one of my favourite basslines of his. Speaking of the Deacon family, I find Luke's own music never fails to put me in a good mood. It's so cheerful. And Cam's videos are always so bright and happy as well. Yesterday, I was at my beautiful close friend, Lizzie's place (mostly to steal cuddles from her gorgeous little girl, Eva, who didn't want a bar of it haha) and all of a sudden, the dark cloud came over me and I was fidgety and moping around her house. I actually said I was going to leave, but Liz, knowing I prefer to have company when I'm not in a great mindspace suggested I stay a little longer. And for that, I am thankful. She saw my needs and acted on them. That being said, if somebody in need of company, act on it. Support is paramount. Even if it's just a meal out or coffee, it's probably because they need a chat. And if they've asked you to spend time with you, it means they trust you. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bup-nwGFayo/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1eddjpwhi5vmb