today really sucked crash's death still had me in complete shock and feeling sick, and my mom was crying pretty much the whole day because of crash and seeing her upset always BREAKS ME so then because i was sad, nothing at all could keep me entertained or happy and i was pretty much in an endless cycle of "i want to just sleep. BUT I SHOULDN'T SLEEP, I SHOULDN'T WASTE THE DAY. maybe i should play skyrim. BUT I AM BORED OF SKYRIM. i should take a walk and get some fresh air. BUT I'M TIRED." hoping that tomorrow is better for my family and i, and that we'll be able to recover from all of this soon