Intro Post
Hi. I'm not gonna name any names cause I don't know whats going on right now. I'm possibly part of a DID system. I know that I tend to forget pretty much everything. Weeks at a time. Major events. Whole conversations. Things I've apparently done or said. I also know my opinions and feelings on things change back and forth a lot, with me having very little memory of why I had the previous opinion and only vaguely remember having it at all. Most of my childhood memories just aren't there. Much of who I am is just extremely inconsistent all of the time.
If I am part of a system, I don't know where I fit in it. I don't know if I'm the host, a regular alter, or what. I don't know what my role is. I've heard that many systems have problems differentiating who is who in the early stages, so maybe thats whats happening. But maybe I'm just a singleton, who knows. Sure as hell not me. The goal is that I'm just a severely inconsistent singleton but who knows.
I can tell you certain things will change drastically on occasion. Beliefs, personality, whatever memories I have. Whole years will end up just being gaps. Things like gender and sexuality are also subject to change. Even names. And thats part of why I suspect I may be part of a system. I don't really know why this changes. It just does. I see so many of my memories through 3rd person. Like I'm not the one doing them. Little scary tbh.
I'm just gonna write here on occasion to see if I can piece things together. Any advice is appreciated.