Charles didn't think he would ever get used to this.
The waves licked at his body, swaying and reclining as he washed ashore. He couldn't move, couldn't speak as his bones ached and the burning sensation at the back of his throat only spread. The sand was rough underneath his fingers, as he was only able to stare into the sky for several seconds, minutes, hours. Curling on his side was the only movement he could afford, coughing up the sand and water and burning burning burning insides of his mouth and stomach. He supposed he should be glad he was so used to vomiting all the time by now.
Even as the sensation of pain slowly eased out of his body, Charles knew the memory of death, of drowning, the first, second, third, forth, fifth time would never leave. It was only natural that this would be his punishment for wandering to other worlds, that he would have to experience the pain of death over and over again to gain his redemption.
He didn't know what time he arrived here, not remembering even if it was light or dark out when his body washed up on the shore. But it wouldn't really matter. Time as a concept wasn't one he really thought of much anymore, having grown used to the constant state of morning mourning that his world occupied. All he knew as his eyes slowly started to adjust once more was the light surrounding him.
A bright sun welcomed him, shinning into his eyes as he squinted up at the sky of this new world. Too bright, much too bright. With a groan he ducked his head, his eyes still feeling tired and sore from the salt water. Only for him to face another light, this one slightly dimmer then the rest, beckoning him off from the distance. Despite it all, he couldn't look away from this one, as though drawn to it.
The beach changed into thick forest as he walked, and darkness cloaked the bright sky. Only the dimmed light remained, as though creating a path just for him. A path to a forest clearing, a pitch black castle sitting in the middle. Tall and imposing, it was surrounded by darkness, the light a bright lifeline shooting straight through its heart. Looking at it, Charles felt as though it was piercing his own as well.
And right outside of it, sat a familiar dark-haired boy.
Charles stopped short. And the boy stepped forward, a smile on his face mirroring his own.
He was seemingly too happy with his presence, and Charles didn't really understand why. The boy asked too many questions, about his own world, about himself, about anything and everything. The corners of his mouth crinkled upward as he talked. Charles couldn't help but stare. Why was he here? Why was he here? A centerfold in the middle of someone's world, someone's life. Why?
The boy mentioned Vincent's name, casually, passing over it in a instant and the God thought he might collapse.
He...He didn't wish to be rude. He really didn't. But he had to ask. He has to confirm, he had to know. He has searched far too long not to. He wanted to sit down. He wanted to run. Run to his side. Right now, he needed to right now. In this dark, dark world, there was only one person who could have created this boy. Only one person who could answer his questions. Only one person who was the center of it all.
The words were blurted out, suddenly, interrupting whatever the other was about to say. Charles felt regret. Charles felt elated. Charles felt like vomiting.
But the boy agreed to take him there all the same.
To follow the life-line light to its conclusion. The end of the path, to where a boy lied in sheets of darkness. Revealed only by the boy who shared his face, the one who watched over him for so so long where Charles could not. The one who could protect him, the one who could comfort him, the one who could put him to sleep.
Charles couldn't do any of those things.
He swallowed hard, not sure if he wished to disturb the sleeping prince. If he had a right to wake him. Even after all this time searching, after dying time and time again just for him. He hardly knows Vincent. He hardly knows him. He didn't have a right to know him. He doesn't have a right to his life, nor his death. He didn't have a right to anything after all that has been done. He had let him go, he should have never have come here. But...
He couldn't stand not seeing him, not now, not after so long. He didn't have a right to feeling like that either. But he couldn't help it, he needed it. It was selfish.
He needed to see him. He needed to understand him. He needed him in his life, and he needs him now in his death.
Charles reaches out, his gloved hand wrapping lightly around the shoulder of the sleeping boy. His skin was warm beneath him. Soft. It made him shiver.
He stopped, settling into the feeling for a minute. As though the boy will disappear as soon as he moved. After several lifetimes of looking only into the eyes of the soulless vessels of his world, who knew if this one was even real? Who knew if this one wouldn't just do what they did, spout meaningless words only to jump off a cliff a second later.
Charles smiled sadly. How ironic it was. To have admired this boy for so long, only to remember him for his death, and his death alone.
If this one was real... no he was real. He was real. He had to convince himself of that, just like he had to convince himself time and time again that the others in his own world weren't the same of those he knew... He was real. He was real, and he was here with him. Sleeping, peaceful, soft, warm, gentle, next to him. He wanted to look at this sight forever, his eyes lingering, trying to commit every single little detail to memory.
Him. Him. Him. Him. His world. His soul. Him. This was him. It wasn't what he thought it would be, what he imagined, but it was him. He would understand this world, just as he would understand this boy. He would. This was him. This was real. He wanted to know, he wanted to realize.
Charles gently shook him awake.