My grampa died the other day... People think it's odd I don't cry as soon
as people die.. Ive been to more deaths then birthdays. I'm at myrtle
beach right now.. All I can think about is how I waste time on the internet
how I waste time mop-ing around. I wonder what to do with my time.
homework would be a good answer but it doesn't fulfill what I want I
guess... I mean I'm not a lazy student. I just don't understand a lot of this
I believe society has us all believing that college after high school is the
best rout.. well what if you don't wanna go? can't you be successful still? I
don't know what I wanna do. My senior years almost up. I want to be a
missionary, but I want to major in film and photography... I want to make
my parents happy but I wanna make my dreams real as well... I wanna
obey God but I want success. but if I take God's plan wont I have
Success? That is important but not the focus here... I wish I would have
courage to explain myself to everyone.
How I even thought of this.
the other day at my grampas "funeral" I looked around there were people I have never known existed. When you have family you don't know and there not long distance thats sad. I have a cousin close to my age that I didn't even know was there. I didn't know he had a little brother. I never knew any of this. It made me think "what am I honestly doing with my life?" am I living the dream? or am I just living... I need to focus on God and my music... I plan on making more videos. I plan on writing more and creating more and more beats... But just I don't know if it will be in a dorm room or with little kids who call me family.
this is a C.Stone production.. I pray for you guys. Thanks for reading.
