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I should start doing this again...
Poetry. I beat a life a thing you call a hobby.. I like it. I like making people think with how I say my words. For moments or ays at a time. I think its crazy how in to days society we don't do poetry as offend as we use too...
Im unsure what we are but being nothing is probably best.
loved...
I fell hard.
the minute I said yes. I honestly didn't think we would last. it's been several months later we have been in a few arguments and I'm quiet about my problems but I love you... I do mind some of the things you do but I've learned too trust you. I've learned that you care about others... but doesn't seem that i am one of those "others" but externally its totally fine doesn't bother me none.
internally I'm enrage I feel as I am nothing but a useful get away when you don't want too be with your boys... I do have a jealously issue.
I some nights wonder, what if something actually happened too me... would you care? would you be concern? what would you say if one of my friends told you. Would you have an actually heart, or a wall built up?
Would you even visit me in the hospital. All I ever hear about is work. Your life.
never a "how was your day" how has school been? nothing personal it makes me nervous about what "we" are and what "we" are going to be.
I've been nice and lenient but lately I just want to be done. for good... everyone tells me you treat me great but you treat me like trash some times... I am not garbage I am a well educated christian love. I don't deserve a servant but I do deserve someone whom just talks too me. Someone who tells me there problems one whom randomly text me something stupid. Thats what I want...
I just think that God has been showing me through the last couple months is too wait. Patients is what I need to learn. I’ve been sinning so much lately and I feel I need to stop. I’m not saying stop us... I just believe I need to restart. Take life slower. I have all these dreams and such but I sometimes put you before my dreams. Before that passion God wants me too do... I put you before ruffin... I soon realized I need to stop. I don't need you but I want you. It seems Gods been telling me we are going to stay us... I want you too pray about it and pray about us. I would be grateful for your thoughts. I wish we could be a real team and be each others MVP’s...
sometimes you just want too yell and scream and just be like why. thats me lately. Ive been acting cool but everything to my left and right has been falling down.
I'm nervous for Jamaica and I'm nervous for school.
Oh hey there.
Lately, I've been gone and I don't know what to ever blog about. I'm not happy I'm not sad. I'm content. A lots happened good and bad. All in all i'm fine with it. I've came to the conclusion that every little thing happens for a reason.
COURTS GOING TO COLLEGE!!
So I'm packing for college and im scared out of my mind.
So cute
So I was reading...
All my blog post seem totally epressing I'm going to bright up the mood. I'm going to California friday (; I hope it's fun. I want to be famous. I started my YOUTUBE but I need more ideas... Got any MSG me (;
I got a job well I have 3 (; part time (;
ALMOST DONE WIFFF DUH HI SKEWL ... oh i'm makin' vids...
Alright so today as I was burning up my seventeen page paper that is my senior project I got a brisk spell of summer. A Bon fire smell enriched my nostrils as the breeze went threw my hair like ocean wind. I was so pleased I could have cried. I almost did because the smoke erose into my eyes. I mean I only burned up my paper because the format sucked and I wasn't satisfied with the grade I would have gotten.
I'm also making youtube videos you should check them out i need ideas feel free to tell me (:
You thought this was okay.
Using a girl for your silly little game.
telling me if I ended our friendship it wouldn't matter
but then you say you love me?
total lies.
my heart hurts all the time because of you.
why?
because I am just human.
I'm a girl
who didn't really have a dad.
so when you see the smile
be happy
it lights up the night sky.
but you can't seem to see that.
I use to "love you"
and I'm not talking about the mushy ushy "I love you. You're so hot oh my lanta"
I'm saying if someone made you sad I'd ask how can I make that frown flip
like in the deck of cards in my living room
UPDATE!
So I'm going to start making youtube videos I belive I hope I get feed back.. (: But yeah this whats my updatee.
Death makes you think.
My grampa died the other day... People think it's odd I don't cry as soon
as people die.. Ive been to more deaths then birthdays. I'm at myrtle
beach right now.. All I can think about is how I waste time on the internet
how I waste time mop-ing around. I wonder what to do with my time.
homework would be a good answer but it doesn't fulfill what I want I
guess... I mean I'm not a lazy student. I just don't understand a lot of this
school work.
I believe society has us all believing that college after high school is the
best rout.. well what if you don't wanna go? can't you be successful still? I
don't know what I wanna do. My senior years almost up. I want to be a
missionary, but I want to major in film and photography... I want to make
my parents happy but I wanna make my dreams real as well... I wanna
obey God but I want success. but if I take God's plan wont I have
Success? That is important but not the focus here... I wish I would have
courage to explain myself to everyone.
How I even thought of this.
the other day at my grampas "funeral" I looked around there were people I have never known existed. When you have family you don't know and there not long distance thats sad. I have a cousin close to my age that I didn't even know was there. I didn't know he had a little brother. I never knew any of this. It made me think "what am I honestly doing with my life?" am I living the dream? or am I just living... I need to focus on God and my music... I plan on making more videos. I plan on writing more and creating more and more beats... But just I don't know if it will be in a dorm room or with little kids who call me family.
this is a C.Stone production.. I pray for you guys. Thanks for reading.
When you take a break.
I took a break from a friendship for a while. In my eyes when it happened it seemed so awesome. Tonight I realized I don't know if it's worth the time to redo the friendship. If its worth the tears or the "worrying" I just want a friendship. just a friendship.
#pray4it
So I twisted my ankle, there for I dont think march madness is going to happen. I feel like crying but I wont cause idk I feel helpless cause everyone has to get me stuff for me.
I was soo happy to hang with you today andrew. lets not drift..
I recall being lost and empty looking for hope in this pretty face. im done being trapped and lonely I made a scrap book called a testimony.
I will find hope in the saddest of times have faith when no one can feel it. be strong when nothing works. tear up when i dont have to and be me. i'm not the greatest fan of hugs or feeling. ya get me.
