feelings
Last year during Ramadan I remember how I tried so hard to focus on getting close to Allah and to utilize it to my best. I struggled no joke. It was hard. I was depressed. I was sad. Alhamdulillah i made it to another Ramadan . It doesn't feel like Ramadan right now to be honest. My mind is clouded, my emotion are haywire, my heart is heavy. I know there are people who have been in my shoes and have seen that silver lining. Maybe after when Mr.Saudi leaves I will have more clarity and focus on trying to make the most out of this month. I honestly imagined I would be going to KSA finally with mr.Saudi ..I asked Allah if it was good for us that he would facilitate.. I guess it just wasn't written for us this time and it wasn't good for us. I really hope there is something better waiting for us because honestly, i feel sad and hopeless again. I will get through this insha'allah.