#thinking about the world

[gifti3]

the goverment is definitely figuring out this alien situation asap right?? cause whats happening currently is not feasible in the long run is it not??

im sure they are trying to maybe figure it out...probably, but part of me feels like it is not being treated with the seriousness it should be by them, which ig is in character LOL

pretty much relying on one guy (who doesnt even wanna be doing this) is actually scary

and the mc still has to like 'encourage' him to do it, tho its much easier in the 'ray ending' for sure. that man just wants to live a regular life with mc (unfortunately for him that means continuing to be binary star and dealing with aliens)

and if i was a citizen and knew this id be panicking

like yea u have these other heroes helping and stuff which im sure looks comforting from an outside point of view! but like the actuality is that its ray keeping things afloat

AND ON THE TOPIC OF THE MC, i was definitely in my head like....wouldnt rays superiors (managers??) get like curious about them? like no way theyre not being nosy about it after a certain amount of time passes. it really feels like something that could be leveraged against him,,, (if there is fic about this pls send it to me lol)

honestly i feel like mc and rays relationship would have moments of high stress. like there will be good times but also the bad times will also be there and its sometimes gonna be because of outside factors they cant control

[formeitwastuesday]

[helpimstuckindreamland]

I just want to make everyone feel loved and cared for, is that too much to ask?

[faythinthemusic]

Actually it’s genuinely crazy that I’ve started using tumblr again, I’ve started seeing posts from all these accounts I followed from back then…and none of you motherfuckers have changed your avatar ONCE since 2012. And like I love that. I love that we have this thing built by our younger selves that we can just, pop in and enjoy. That’s awesome.

[riverswater]

I'm so in love and it hurts so badly and it's so fulfilling and it will last a lifetime and that's alright, I'll never be over you and that's alright, maybe we will get married and maybe we won't but it's so heartwarming to know that this infinite desperation is somewhat shared. No one will ever understand and that's alright. A shrimp-colored relationship, available in its true colors only to us. I'm not in a relationship, but I'm not single either. It's alright because I get it and I know that you do too. The rest of the world is literally not important. Meaningless. I love you darling. See you soon, or maybe not, we will talk tomorrow or maybe we won't, but I'll think about you, and you'll think about me. We will meet there. It's alright. It's enough.

[riverswater]

At the park, standing next to the water fountain. A crow approaches. It clearly wants to drink from the fountain, but doesn't trust me. I'm standing too close. I can't move away because I'd need to move my bike with me, and it's big and heavy and it makes a lot of noise, and I don't wanna scare the bird away. I turn away, I stand very still. I can hear the crow's feet tapping on the asphalt. Hopping closer to the puddles next to my feet, next to the fountain. I wait. I turn around. The crow is drinking, but as soon as he notices me looking at him he stops. I turn away again. I hear his wings flapping away, and I know he has drunk, and he has flown away now. Love you mister crow. I hope the world won't be too hostile to you today.

[riverswater]

A hornet flew on me. It landed on me. I was so scared I stopped breathing, hoping that if I stayed calm enough, it wouldn't have felt my thigh trembling. It didn't look so scary, after a while. Or maybe I was just tired of keeping my breath in. An ant walked past it, and I thought, "does it know what an ant is? Does it eat ants? What does a hornet eat?" but the hornet just remained motionless. Against the rural background, it was almost invisible, so perfectly camouflaged. I wonder if he knew. A crow flew over us, croaking. I thought, "does it hear it? Can he hear it? Does he care? Does it know there are other creatures other than it, some so vastly bigger than it, it probably couldn't comprehend them?" but the hornet remained stoic once again. Wind picked up, and I blinked, I just blinked, and like that it had flew away.

Do I know? Do I know that there could be creatures so vastly bigger than myself, I wouldn't comprehend their form even if I had them in front of my eyes? Can I hear the wind like the hornet does? Do I know I was made to perfectly match my background, and the earth itself? Am I calm enough to let an ant just be an ant, instead of jumping into action, and shoo it away?

I learnt a lot today.