hey kenia! i saw your reply to the anon abt how other trainees didnt make it too, and i just wanna leave a friendly reminder to not let these anons make you overly anxious! even though it's clear that you have not been neglecting other trainees (as seen through your links), i want to point out that you actually have every right to be more upset over some trainees being eliminated than others! that's the point of the show, we each have our own favs and will therefore be more emotionally attached+
+ i’ve been following up on your blog for a while and i have noticed that you are super considerate in all your posts to everyone’s thoughts and opinions of the show, and honestly you are fab for that, but i also want to tell you that it’s okay to express your own emotions and opinions once in a while, especially when this is YOUR blog gurl !!! if blogging about these thoughts and emotions helps you deal with it, go for it! sorry for the essay haha but i didnt like seeing u get anxious over it!
I hope these two asks go together because they got shuffled around in my inbox. kjrlrewlkjew
I’m kind of too sensitive to others, I guess. From years of stanning Nu’est, I know firsthand about the frustration that comes with seeing your fave be ignored by the public. So I understand that others are just as frustrated as I am about their favorites and I don’t ever want to dismiss those feelings. I don’t ever want to make anyone feel like their opinions don’t matter or that their emotions don’t matter. Everyone needs someone to vent to and I try to put aside my biases as much as possible when people do vent in my ask or in their own posts.
I agree that we’re all emotionally attached and that’s why it’s important to be there for everyone- I just hope people keep in mind that it’s not easy to ignore your own pain about a certain trainee so venting about that pain (as long as it’s not explicit hate) shouldn’t be dismissed either. I would hate to dismiss the anon who sent the post because I’m sure it’s born from their love for the eliminated trainees and (I hope) not from anything against me.
I think I’ve mentioned this in another ask but I’m also the kind of person that’s very guarded- partly because my words have been misconstrued in the past. I’ve also volunteered at crisis centers during freshman and sophomore year of college and their training is sort of ingrained into me at this point so it’s second nature for me to try to view things from other people’s perspectives and to think of my emotions as 2nd to theirs.
I’ve been working on being nicer to myself, though, and allowing myself to feel whatever it is I feel because everyone’s emotions are valid. erjwelr I don’t know how to put things into words right now, and this answer is all over the place so I’m sorry about that. jrkewlrjewlkhw
Please know I am really grateful for you and all the wonderful people that never let me forget that I matter as well. :’)
