#this is a really

[glaobobotalrynn]

Hello Everyone,

It's been a hot minute since I've done a text post, but here we are. Hi. I forget if the last post I wrote myself was the really hopeless one, but I promise that I'm doing much better now. My name is Lynn, this is where I scream into the void, but I think I might try to for serious take some notes on here.

I'm 19 1/2, and for the past 8 1/2 years my mom has been fighting cancer. I should note up front that this isn't me about to ask for money or anything, I only want moral support if you want to.

She's had a very, very bad cold for the past two weeks and it has shown me how truly bad it's going to be when she is fully gone. Most days, she's very depressed and has low energy, and lately we've only been eating meals out of the freezer, and honestly it's not good. I'm very tired of this. So this year, I want to try to take over??? A little bit???? At least in the food department, I do a lot of the cleaning anyways so there's not much of a change there. Since there's no real guide for taking over for an ailing parent that I could find online, I decided to start writing here so that people who're also in my situation can have notes in the future.

So; here are my food goals this year:

Fry chicken. I'm white and young so I'm very scared to do this, but homemade chicken fingers with mac and cheese and asparagus sound SO good.

Grow a bunch of my own stuff, revamp the veggie garden box we have in the back. Onions and Potatoes are something I'm trying to study more about since we use these a lot in cooking, but I think I'll start with easier plants this year like green beans and tomatoes.

Figure out how to make a pasta sauce that's on par with the sauce we usually like (Mid's meatless)

Make bread at home at least once a week

Before you wonder about the patriarchy and where the hell my dad is, he works long hours and also can end up travelling for like 2-3 days out of the week a lot of times, so it's not his fault he can't help much. I can't just not do this either, not only do I care about what I eat myself, but also I have a little sister that does not deserve to only eat freezer meals, so I'm doing this for her.

[datshitrandom]

Darren Criss | 2022

[shyloudpanda]

Stede Bonnet is my baby and I love his gentleman ways! Here's hoping for a season 2!!

[haldrauve]

Has Astor ever fallen in love with a human or other supernatural entity? What kind of personality atracts him? :x (Sorry for all the questions)

Astor’s love life is going to be handled deeply in his canon which I am currently seriously writing so I can’t go into detail, but he does “fall in love” with certain people. When I say “love” it doesn’t necessarily involve dating or marriage.

He’s easily attracted to personalities with great power, intensity, and vitality–monstrous people who could and would crush him like an ant. Astor’s got a very intense, thrill-seeking personality, so he is drawn to people who give him that rush he craves. 

He’s also attracted to certain calmer personalities–but those individuals also tend to have a darkness and intensity to them which captivates him in a different way.

[last-constellation]

it’s 9 pm on a wednesday and I’m sad

I’m laying in bed listening to mr brightside as it would sound playing from another room

on loop

because that’s how my depression manifests itself

I can hear my neighbors coughing outside

I remember when just hearing the word weed made me queasy and want to puke

Now, hearing my friends have more fun than me makes me queasy and want to puke

I keep thinking I hear my name being called from outside

equally, I do and do not want my name to be called

I know that in one hour i will have drunk

I will be drunk

And I’ll pretend that I’m having fun

with friends

And I’ll forget that I’m sad for a minute

I didn’t have friends in high school

I’m scared

I’m anxious

above that, I’m lonely

I have friends that care about me but

but do they really

because it sure as hell doesn’t feel like it sometimes

[bimmykimmy]

hunk and keith going to an arboretum together, going adventuring in the city, trying interesting foods n drinks in random little restaurants, going to star gazing and to drive in theaters and on road trips, hunk and keith just having A Good Time

Drive in theaters!!!! Omg those summer nights au sitting on the back of hunk’s truck, watching the lightning bugs, wearing jeans and tank tops and flip flops. I’m getting ahead of myself….

[arialis]

mystery-shrouded said: Which ones?

it’s a secret b/c i’m kinda embarrassed (i shouldn’t be honestly but i am) and also b/c i literally want absolutely no one to watch this show so i am not gonna give it the exposure