someone who was very dear to me. my relative, she had heart problems and passed away. they keep saying that she didn't care about me BUT SHE DID. SHE DID EVERYTHING TO KEEP ME SAFE
i just cant do this right now, its even worse that these thoughts keep swirling around in my head, the bad thoughts.
Hey, listen. I understand how you're feeling right now. I lost someone I cared about too. Gramps.. It wasn't my fault he passed away but it didn't stop the hurt either. And the more and more I fought demons the more worthless I felt. But someone who took care of me like that.. someone who trained me to be how i am despite being utterly useless everywhere else, it meant he cared still. I'm sure that she cared a lot for you. I know gramps did. I'm sorry for yelling at you. It's still not an excuse to kill people however. I would recommend Blocking them and if you can, reporting them.
(Mod: I genuinely know how you feel, I lost my mom when i was 15-16. She passed due to lung cancer and watching as she drowned i stood at her side. I hope she sees me today and stilll cares about me from where she is now. I hope that I am not too much of a disappointment to her and i hope shes happier where she is now. But don't let anons get to you. Let them make you stronger. Let them make you into someone worth being even more proud of. )
