i have a lot of weird feelings about my deadname but it seems like everywhere i turn i hear about another activist or lesbian or trans person with that name and that’s kinda redeemed it for me in a way? i mean it never fit me even back when i thought i was cis, but now i kinda feel like it’s an old flame, and we’ve both moved on and are in better places, and we smile at each other in public with our current spouses but never actually talk, and we wonder how we ever were together in the first place














