login' in a quick pre-sleepytime update:
Another 10 days using braces and the ol' drawin' hand should be back up to snuff.
Also if you need a booster today heres a story.
So this is a 100% actually true story.
If you ever feel like you over reacted, went too far in though or panic. It's okay, don't feel bad about it, cause brains are wired odd.
Mine, it's deffinately something, i often have internal dialouge. Sometimes my dialouges are myself conversing with myself, if that makes sense. And on occassion my brain will not inquire, it'll straight just initiate action. Three or four years back, i suck at time, i was out walking the local bike path. It was sunny, calm, light breeze, late spring, just pure perfection. I was enjoying the flora, i love to just observe irl nature and lanscapes, i find it very relaxing. The bike path is along a residential area, all the folks are super nice. They'll wave from the decks and back patios, the usual midwest friendly. I was along the lush flower path that'd recently bloomed, just finishing something in pokemon go.
When a butterfly flutters into my field of view.
Now i mentioned how my brain do.
Well the butterfly decided it wanted to come at my face, darting off at three inches away.
(this took like 3second realtime)
My brain, in all its glory, threw the "oh shit" switch. Because it saw a thing coming at my face, in three seconds the following happened;
My heart rate skyrocketed.
My body broke full sweat.
I froze in flight or fight.
And my brain, at the top of its internal dialouge, in the calmest tone went
"this is how i die."
And then the butterfly flutted off, and i was left standing dumbfounded.
I wasn't ashamed or anything, i was just baffled. My brain lost it's shit at a butterfly, i lost my shit at a butterfly...how!?
I found it hillarious, i fall asleep to horror movies, i don't get grossed out easily at all. I love bugs, fish, medical stuff, gross stuff was interesting to me. (still is) and a thing that'd have to call on god in all his glory to even possibly pose a noticeable threat to me spooked my brain into a "welp, this is it." state.
So, as i said, the next time you hear or see or feel or even say something you feel was over the line or legit too much. Remember my story, brains are weird, so it's all good.
Nighty night.(for me anyhoo)
